People don't know the real me
The one who hides behind
Fake smiles
And tons of makeup
They think I'm a slut
If I can't leave the house
Without makeup
But they don't know
That without makeup
I feel naked,bare,insecure
People say I'm pretty
But they don't know me
Better than me
I know I'm ugly because
Every time I look in the mirror
I see an ugly fat girl
With dreams too fat to achieve
I know people think I'm lame
Because I can hear them
Calling me names
Life is complicated
I have lost all hope
And faith
Suicide thoughts occur
In my head
More often now
More than I can stand
I've nearly started cutting now
The stress is too much
I am still waiting
For the one
Who can give me hope
Is it you?
Or is it you?
I don't know
I don't know anything anymore.
I need God to send me
His angel
To help me through life.
