Chapter 6

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I missed him. I missed him so much. For the first 2 week's I would cry myself to sleep. And when I woke up I would realize that he was gone forever. I was depressed. I was sad. I was so sad I just can't describe the feeling. Half way through the summer I told my self u have to stay strong u can't be fragile. And then I changed. I changed my personality, my choice of words, my attitude. By the end of the summer I grew stronger. I had a more whatever attitude. I had a new choice of words. I would be angry and fight more and show how tough I really am. And to be honest. I loved the new me. I went to school feeling confident. I saw my friends and they loved the new me. I knew they could tell I changed. Just by my words. I didn't care what anyone else thought. I stood up for my self. I loved it. I thought I could like someone new but no I didn't. All of the guys were either hot but jerks or nerdy and mean. Oh well.
I made new friends. I now have more friends. I love my new friends. And they love me. I am happy. But every now and then I think about HIM. I don't want to but he just pops up in my head.
Halfway through the year I started to develop feelings for someone. I will not say. Sorry. But then he was a total jerk and made me cry. I got over him but a little part of me still likes him. I don't know y. But now I have developed new feelings for a boy. Still I can't say. But he is the most awesome guy. He makes me happy. Almost as happy as Rene. I like him. He is awesome. Sweet, caring but can be bad*ss sometimes. He is in my defense hot. And he is every th I.g I am looking for. Even my friends approve him. But Alyssa told me, "If he breaks your heart I break his face. And u break his nuts." She is awesome. Like my other friends. So I like him and I don't know if he likes me. My friends Taylor says someone likes me but she didn't tell me. I guess I will have to wait and see.

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