Flowers in the Shade (Variejo Series #2)

13

Stalk

Sumunod si Danica sa Thunderbird resort matapos kong tawagan kahapon. She rests in one of the villas with her boyfriend. I need someone to talk to, that's why. My mother is with me pero dahil kay Tito Arman, hindi ko siya masolo.

At kung hindi ako nagkakamali ng interpretation sa mga tingin ni mommy, ayaw niya akong lumapit sa kaniya kapag magkasama sila ni Tito Arman ... makes me wonder why.

Ibinaba ko ang sunglasses ng bahagya nang tumunog ang phone ko. It was Danica who texted this morning.

Danica:

Girl, where ka?

I texted back.

Ako:

Infinity pool. You?

Danica:

Nasa tamang tao. LOL

Hindi ko na ni-reply-an sa kalokohan niya. Tinago ko muli ang phone at hinintay na lamang siya kung sakali na pupuntahan niya ako rito.

I laid my back on the sun lounger and kept my eyes closed. I pretend I hear no other nuisance around to relax this morning. Clearly, I did not have a good sleep last night.

Shame on me. I keep on thinking about a tutor of mine who has gone and is now back after years.

I was really thinking kung bakit ganoon. May parte sa akin na natuwa dahil nakabalik na siya. May parte na nasasaktan. Kasi iniisip ko na baka may girlfriend na siya ngayon.

I sighed.

I understand it all.

I ... have feelings for him.

I know I like him since then. Hindi ko maamin. Ayokong aminin.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit at paano. Basta ang alam ko ... may gusto ako sa kaniya.

At mananatili iyon sikreto.

Alam ko na hindi ito magtatagal. Mawawala din ang binhi kong nararamdaman para sa kaniya. Tutal, hindi ko naman gusto ito. Hindi ko siya type—mukha siyang babaero!

Hindi dapat lumala ang nararamdaman ko para sa tang iyon. If there is a law that tells once your heart beats romantically for a certain person, you must obey it to avoid damages. Then, I will transgress.

I wish nothing could transpire while I am staying here. In his place.

Kailangan ko lang siya iwasan. Kailangan ko paalalahanan ang sarili na hindi kami puwede at hindi siya papatol sa akin. Kung magagawa ko iyon, hindi lalago ang nararamdaman ko.

I just like him. It ends there. No greater than like must be unearthed within my heart. I won't fall in love ... with him. Not with him.

"I assume I did not ruin your morning," si Sir Geon na sumulpot mula sa tabi ko.

Hindi ko siya pinansin. Ipinagpatuloy ko ang pagpapanggap na tulog. Paninindigan ko ang sinabi ko.

"Laire?" sabay upo niya sa paanan ng lounger.

Ano ba naman 'to. Kung ipagpapatuloy niya ang pangungulit baka mahalata niya na nagpapanggap lang ako!

He sighs. "You should sleep in a room. Men are ... ogling at you. And in your body."

I can feel that, Sir. Anong pinagkaiba mo sa kanila?

I actually feel comfortable with my very own clothes. Anything I wear! And I see no problem with it since it gives confidence. The clothes I wear are not an invitation to the eyes of those with evil intentions. Wearing daring clothes is a way of expressing freedom. It is never our problem if they are hungry for lust.