Blue Skies & Distant Futures

She turns away from me and lets out an exhausted sigh. She doesn't want to keep doing this with me. I don't want to lose her though. She means so much to me. I only wish she could understand how much I really care.
"I just don't know," she whines. I glance down towards the sidewalk. "What's the point anymore?"
"The point is being together!" I say. She doesn't want to believe that I'm right. I know I'm usually not, but this time I am. We can't split away from each other.
"I will hold onto you until the world splits apart and you fall to the other end."
"Maybe I already fell," she retorts.
"Baby, we can touch the moon if we reach for it together. There's nothing we can't do and that includes fixing things. We're too far in to fall out now."
"Were we really in at all?" she explodes. "Think about it! When was the last time we went a week without fighting?"
"It's been a while," I admit. "But that doesn't mean anything."
"It means that we're not happy together..."
"Yes, we are! We just have to work on some things!"
"I'm hurt. You accuse me and make me to blame. It's tearing me apart. You make me sound like a monster. You make me sound like the people we always said we never wanted to be."
"I know," I wince, trying to hold back the tears. "But I don't mean to. I hate the way I am. I hate making you-"
"-You make me feel like I'm just knocking you down and I feel like I'm not good enough for you!" she screams.
I can't hold back the tears any longer. My willpower snaps and a warm stream of salty tears goes rolling down my cheek. I can't handle seeing her like this.
"You're too good for me," I whimper. "I don't deserve you at all. You deserve better."
"I'm tired of fighting all of these meaningless battles with you. All we do is fight," she says angrily.
"I know that I'm difficult but I'm trying to change for you," I say defensively.
"I'm tired of giving you chances. You've had more than enough."
I still can't meet her gaze. I keep my head downcast and stare at the ridges in the concrete. This is killing me. I just don't know what to do. I can't lose her but I'm going to.
"This is the last one I need."
"I already gave up," she interjects.
"All we need to do to get through this is sit down and talk about it. We can solve our problems and be happy together forever!" I plead.
"If we try to talk, you'll just blow up like you always do and start accusing me of yelling at you."
"I won't this time, okay? I know I can be a handful but I'm working on it. I need you to get me through this."
"I can't handle it again," she says.
"You won't have to, I promise. I can do this. If I can't again, you can walk away for good. I won't say a word...it'll have been all my fault."
"I just don't know."
"Just give me one more shot. I know that you believe our love is worth fighting for. So let's go to war with our problems and rebuild what we've lost...let's be happy together again. You want to, I know you do."
"I'm sorry," she shrugs. "I just can't do this anymore."
I try to force myself to look up into her milky brown eyes just one last time. To catch the glint of the sun and how perfectly it twinkles in the morning. To see the reflection of my future. I see so many great things in her eyes that now I may never see again.
She stands up slowly, gently hugs me once more for the walk home and then she begins on her way. I'll never see her again and I know it.
I erupt in a hysterical laugh and gaze up at the sky. The endless blue of the daylight, hidden away by puffy clouds of water vapor.
"You'll never be as beautiful as her!" I shout to the sky. "You'll never be as beautiful as my Sky!"
Shaking violently with the sudden realization that I was, for the first time, truly heartbroken, I glance down the path and see her walking away. There's no turning back.
"Goodbye," I sigh. "I love you, Sky."

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