Things I can't say out loud.

Skinny.

I fucking hate that word. It makes me think of something shrivelled and tiny.

It makes me think of me.

I'm not insecure, only because I'm happy with who I am. But that doesn't mean I don't have my fair share of body image issues. The most annoying things I have to face nearly everyday:

Why are you working out? You don't need to, do you want to disappear?
Well sorry for not wanting to sit on my ass all day and actually live healthy.

Are you okay? Like do you have an eating disorder?
That isn't a joke thanks. Just because I'm thin doesn't automatically make me mentally ill.

You're so flat chested, and you have no curves. Real women have curves.
I must be fake. And excuse me just because I haven't wore tight fitting clothes that flatter my curves doesn't mean I'm not. It's not my fault you can't hide yours easily like I can under baggy tees.

Only dogs go for bones.
I'm guessing the boys that fancy me must be dogs ;) and last time I checked, none went for your "curves". Body isn't everything.

You're so lucky you're thin and small.
Actually I'm okay with people saying this to me lol.

You should stop complaining about being thin because fat people like me are not.
Then work out....? Not my fault I'm blessed with a sexy metabolism. (Positivity all the way!)

It pisses me off that people with smaller boobs, tinier waists, wrists, legs can't have body image issues despite the constant shit they take. Omg chicken legs! Omg twig! Omg you'll get blown away. Omg ashfkjfldhsjagalhs

And the worst thing is when people pick on you for the choice of food. If you eat too much, it's a drama because 'wow a girl can eat even though she's tiny' is a shocker. If you don't eat as much as other people, it makes you anorexic.

I'm human. So are you. It's so funny because if a heavy girl is called fat, everyone loses their minds. But if a skinny girl is compared to an ugly stick it's all fine because it's not possible for her to want bigger boobs or fuller arms. Obviously.

Anyway despite all this, it's important to remember that every girl is beautiful. But that doesn't depend on her looks, it her personality. As long as a person has a pure, clean and friendly soul, no matter how much you weigh, or how much acne/scars you have:

You will always be beautiful.

I took all the things people said to me and turned it into something positive. They call me fragile and small? I feel proud. Because it makes me feel feminine.

They call me tiny and harmless? I use it as an advantage to look innocent whilst planning someones murder. Trust me, I'm extremely violent so this masks away all the aggressiveness making me seem like a cute person when in real life I can punch you and make you cry. (Not that that is my intention or anything)

They think I can't beat them because everyone thinks they are eight times bigger than me (I'm short too sigh)?
I show them my ninja skill. (Ohhh yeahhhhh)

And lastly I'm proud of being the way I am. It makes it easier to fit into guy's arms. It makes it easier for them to carry me around and lift me when we hug. It makes it easier to eat and eat and not gain an ounce. And it makes it easier to just be me. Be proud of who you are and turn the negative comments into happy thoughts. Sometimes I envy my best friend. She's curvy and tall. Long hair and dimples. Perfect right? But then I realise we're all different and all perfect in our own ways. And I go back to appreciating her beauty but also keeping in mind that I am beautiful too. I'm competitive by nature what can I say?

BUT

Never, ever sacrifice Pizza. It is the food of the gods.