Picka : 30 Days to Love

Euntae - III

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Euntae knows he fucked up now. Yeonwoo refused to accept his request to chat. What should he do now? What if Yeonwoo wouldn't meet him anymore? He began to feel anxious and uncomfortable. He has yet to tell Yeonwoo about the incident with Lia from last night. Nothing happened, so why did he feel so guilty?

It will be a lie if he said he doesn't fall in love again after seeing her with black dress that evening. On her, everything looks stunning. He simply resents Doha for being her companion. It should be him. Because of his frustration over Doha's familiarity and closeness to Yeonwoo, led him to chose to ignore them entirely and stick with Lia. He continues making decisions that he'll later regret.

What about the concert tickets? He had purchased the tickets earlier in the performance but had yet to approach Yeonwoo about a date. Knowing Yeonwoo loves the band, he purchased these concert tickets in the hopes that doing so would bring them closer. One of the reasons he couldn't and wouldn't dare criticise Lia for purchasing the movie tickets was that he had also done so.

And he understands her feeling. Fear of rejection despite a desire to be closer. However, how did things get so wrong? Since Lia come to the programme? Or perhaps it's because Gangsung advised him to learn more about Lia? Or ever since he first met Yeonwoo?

He doesn't even know much about her. Why again he waste the opportunity to be closer to Yeonwoo when he decides to chat with Lia's best friend instead of Yeonwoo?

Because of last night accident, everything has changed. The relationship he imagined before could no longer be realised anymore. All because of him. His dumb attitude. And it's now too late to regret it.

If Yeonwoo doesn't accept his chat, then who she's chatting right now? Maybe Doha? Despite knowing Euntae are closer to Yeonwoo. Doha never tried to hide his emotions, especially among the men group chat.  Then again, he even drank with Yeonwoo on their date. Doha has been interested in Yeonwoo since the day he joined.

Or maybe Jooyul? Jooyul more bright and cheerful than him. And more to in line of Yeonwoo's type too. Maybe Yeonwoo already drawn to him? Or they might even have met up secretly? Their house are closer. They have a lot of time and freedom to meet each other secretly.

What if after the second round, they decided to go to a late night date? She might go drinking again with Doha. Maybe going out for landscape watch together with Jooyul? He hate himself now. Why would he left with Lia? He really should throw her aside to Jooyul. Can he turn back the time?

Maybe if he do that, he and Yeonwoo now will become more closer or might even further their relationship. Euntae couldn't stay calm after imagining Yeonwoo going out with others. They're supposed to be together. He's the one who ruined everything.

What if Yeonwoo regretted everything.  After the programme end, he doesn't even had her phone number. Should he go to Yeonwoo's house? He still have the address after delivering food for her.

But he want to see Yeonwoo right now. He doesn't know what he going to talk to her but need to see her now. He miss her beautiful and charming smile. That he destroyed last night. Which he might never get anymore.

Euntae felt blank. He doesn't know what he's doing now. It just has been an hour after the chat event ended which definitely didn't even able to begin as Yeonwoo doesn't choose him. He, who never left his work earlier suddenly decided closed his clinic without any notice.

Anxiously, Euntae grabbed his car key and started driving his car to Yeonwoo's apartment. He keeps feeling anxious, imagining what's going to happen to their relationship that he couldn't even able to work properly. He relieved that he kept Yeonwoo's address in his note. Feeling happier, he quickly drive, not able to contain his excitement to meet her.

Arriving there, Euntae just realise that he doesn't even have Yeonwoo's number phone? How can he tell her that he want to meet her? Worstly, what would she think of him if she know that he keep her address? Would Yeonwoo thought of him as a stalker and weird?

He couldn't control his nervous, hands gripping the  steering wheel, showing his obviously reins.  Before he could make the decision to go out, finding her, his heart thumped seeing Yeonwoo was in front of his eyes, walking happily with a man. Not Doha nor Jooyul. When he guarded against them, there are other guy who he didn't know that able to be beside her. Closer than him.

Its hurt. Seeing her laughing with other guy happily. The smile that made him fall harder is now for others guy. Its not like he always there for her. He doesn't even have the right to interrupt her life and even control her.

When Euntae realised how many opportunities he lost,he was unable to conceal his regret behind his laughter. Does he still have the right to be with herr?
He should have realise that Yeonwoo's world doesn't  revolve around the dating programme only.