When we arrived at Julie's, Jack ran up and hugged me and Cameron. Julie got up and saw someone walk out of her bedroom. ... It was Hayes. Are they back together? Are they just friends? I don't know and I'm not willing to ask at this time. I have Jack back and had a Seat on Julie's couch.
Sometimes I wish I could just be back to normal with Cameron living in my house hayes living in a house Julie living in my house having Jack there and finally Sapphire.I was upset because he had sold our dog we can pay for its food we could barely pay for food.
He said goodbye to Julie and Hayes we what we drove in my car back home. I put Jack in Sapphire down for her nap and then had some alone time with Cameron.
"Soooo" he said in a manly voice.he came closer to lean in but I push his face away." What's wrong baby don't you want me?"he has an evil grin on his face." Cameron is this a joke I swear if it is I'm going to beat your ass!"
"No I-I just have done... It sense us." He cries. I felt the same way because it was true I haven't either it was kind of sad but true.
We lean in. A couple minutes later clothes were off and we were in bed. What was I thinking? I'm still dating Carter! WTF WTF! I was to lazy to get up so I just lie there for a while after it was done with. What if I done I screwed up. When I fell asleep I dreamed about what Carter would think if I was even going to tell him I don't know if I'll tell him I'm too scared of what he'll say but for now I just got to think about me Cameron Jack and sapphire.
I woke up and Sapphire was crying. I walk to the nursery and cradled her until she stopped. I was thinking about what decisions I made I was wearing his big T-shirt no panties no socks knew nothing except that the T-shirt. I thought about it for a while, maybe I still love Cameron but I don't know I have to think about it later my mind is focused on everything else right now.
The next day I got up and got ready to go to Starbucks "Babe just stay here for now I'm going to break up with Vivian we're meeting up at Starbucks I'll break it to her then and then we can get together right?"
"no, yeah yeah". I started to think about Carter again when was I going to break up with him was I going to be cheating on Carter with Cameron when I gonna be cheating on Cameron with Carter? I was really scared my heart was beating fast and I could barely breathe Cameron notice and I replied with yeah yeah I'm fine but in the inside I was freaking out.
