minutes turned into hours as we waited for Bri to hopefully wake up and be ok
Ion understand why all of a sudden she chose to do sum shi like this, maybe I was wrong about ha bein fine. Leavin ha alone was one of the worst mistakes I eva made.
My leg kept bouncin as I was just slouched in ma chair waitin for a doctor to come back and tell me 'she's gonna make it.'
If the news was opposite I'm prayin fa dat nigga who touched ha. I mean I'm still on his ass. Been stalkin dat nigga eva since she told me.
One thang's fa sure
He gon die
I was snapped out ma thoughts as a doctor walked in wit ha clipboard
"Are you the brother of Brisha Johnson sir?" The lady asked lookin up at Jacarion
"Yeah wsp?" He asked bitin his lip impatient
"She's gonna be okay but as for the baby, it didn't make it due to the injury. I'm sorry for your loss. But if you want to see her she's awake." She said walking away leavin us in shock.
It all make sense now. I should have known. She shot haself in da stomach to kill da baby. She did the same shi again.
I love Bri but I'm tired of ha shi. Maybe she ain't da one fa me. I'll go check up on ha but dis da last time she gon hear from me.
I kno once she get out she gon need a shoulda to cry on but it ain't gon be mine cause she coulda damn near killed haself.
Ion fuck wit all dis not one bit. Dis nigga still dead tho but once dats handled me nd Bri good as done.
I looked up seein Jacarion nd Dooka walkin down to ha room sighin as I got up to go wit em.
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i laid in the hospital bed staring out the window lost in my thoughts trying to gather them together
To be honest even tho I just wanted to kill the baby there was a side of me that really did want to end it all I know I sound crazy but could you blame me?
I suddenly picked up my head seeing the door open revealing my two brothers and...Nardo.
I figured the doctor already told them bout the dead baby which is why I just looked back out the window ready for what they had to say.
"Bri why?" Jay asked me making me feel a lump in my throat
I didn't answer but for some reason I laughed which ofc made them look at me like I was insane.
"Is that really even a question at this point?" I said smiling shaking my head
"What the fuck is funny bout dis Bri?" He said sternly
"I didn't want to have this damn baby! You think I asked for all this messed up shit to happen to me? You don't understand what it's like being a female! You don't know what it's like having to wear certain things because people don't know how to keep their eyes or hands off of you! AND YOU DAMN WELL DONT UNDERSTAND HOW THE FUCK I FEEL ABOUT THE SHIT I JUST DID. I'm slowly dying jay...I'm hurting so much...and all I can do is bottle it up and push it away." At this point tears were flowing down my cheeks as everyone was just quiet I looked over at Nardo and he didn't even look at me..he was ashamed of me..
"I hope the doctor told you I'm being sent away too." I looked down at my fingers
"Where to?" Dooka asked
"Mental facility." I said making the room go silent again.
Nardo quickly walked out without even looking at me.
"You know it's really hard to even see you as my sister right now. You abort two fucking babies Bri. You foul asf you know that?" Dooka said leavin along wit jay
When they left I could feel my heart shattering and my head drowning in thoughts
Why can't they just understand?
What does it matter anyway I'll be in a mental facility for a few months or a year who fucking knows.
I cried and cried and cried knowing I let them slip away..
