Cameron x Nash Short Stories - cash -

Can't Make You Love Me Part Two

I try not to dwell or overthink his compliment but I can't help but feel a little special because his praise is extremely rare to the point that people think it's a myth. I close my eyes and fall asleep with a smile on my face.

I don't get paged throughout the night and when I wake up I feel rested and I'm in a great mood. My morning flows well, I don't have to do the tedious work of visiting the patients at like 400am, doing dressing changes and getting updates from the nurses before the attending doctors arrive to the hospital because that's the responsibility of the 1st year resident. I haven't seen Cameron yet and I wonder if he's going to act any different.

When I take my breakfast break I'm distracted because I still haven't seen Cameron, I know he's here but I just haven't run into him today. I'm really trying very hard not to dwell on his comment and if I'm being honest with myself I am thinking about it and replaying it in my mind.

I can remember the first time I saw Cameron, I was fresh out of medical school and had just passed my licensing exam. Walking into the hospital as a first year resident with wide eyes and fear at making the wrong decision was extremely stressful. My intern year was the toughest there were 6 trauma surgery residents and now we're down to 3, the other 3 switched specialties because according to Cameron they weren't cut out for trauma surgery. It requires fast thinking and decision making, not only that but the choices made need to be the correct ones because with one wrong decision the patient could die. Nervousness and anxiety have no place in Trauma surgery, the fucked up thing is Cameron let them go in front of everyone else. That's one of the main reasons he's considered an asshole, he doesn't care about feelings or embarrassment. I still run into them time to time, two of them transferred into internal medicine and the other one went to pediatrics.

It's finally time to visit the patients with the attending physician, it isn't Cameron, it's Jack Gilinsky who is a newer attending here. He wasn't around when I started my residency and honestly a lot of the residents like working with him. I'd rather work with Cameron, he's an asshole but I've learned so much from him.

I'm a 3rd year resident so the 1st year resident, Matthew Espinosa is presenting the patients. I just follow along quietly and make notes on what the attending says, we all enter each patient room and Jack speaks to them before we move onto the next. It's tedious but necessary because the attending needs to know everything that's going on with the patients on our service and they also need to see the patient and speak to them before they sign off on what Matthew wrote in the medical chart.

Once we're done seeing all the patients Matthew and I go to the on call room. He carries the beeper during the day, meaning all the pages go to him. I lie down on the bed, Matt sits at the computer and writes orders for the patients we just saw.

"So I heard you're like the only resident who likes working with Dallas," Matthew says as he works, I raise my eyebrow because I wasn't aware people even noticed that. They really need to stay in their lane.

"He's an amazing trauma surgeon, why wouldn't I want to learn from the best?" I state and keep my tone neutral. There isn't necessarily a punishment if word gets out that Cameron and I are involved but honestly it's no one's business. We aren't in a relationship or anything, we just get sexual release. Especially after being pumped up on adrenaline after a successful surgery having sex afterwards is so fucking amazing. That's how it all started. We had literally put a man back together after a gruesome car accident. We were stripping off our gowns, hat and shoe covers we wear in the OR, for whatever reason Cameron had left his things in the on call room, he followed me in and I was changing into a t shirt because I was done for the day. One moment I was changing and the next Cameron had me against the wall with his lips on mine and he was grinding his erection on mine. I had always found him attractive but I never imagined he was even interested in males. I didn't resist at all, I wanted him too. The sex was amazing, the best I ever had and that's what started our affair.