Into the darkness (an Eric Northman Fanfiction)

Twelve

      I'm tired. More tired than I've ever been including in my human life. I no longer had the need to roam the earth. So I only returned to the hotel room to pack up, I left my room key for Eric to return and then I left. I started my journey by heading towards New Orleans. I needed to get to a grave yard to rest. I didn't want anyone to find me. I had lost my will to live. Maharet will be the better choice as Queen. I kept walking until I hit the Texas/ Louisiana state line.
         The only thing I kept thinking about  the explosion. That feeling of helplessness. The smell of all the blood splattered all over the walls that were still standing.
        I stopped flying and went into a bar. I felt like eating nachos. As I walked in I felt as if everyone was staring at me. I just kept walking, and hoping the sounds of the world would just fade out. As I kept walking the feeling of being followed kept getting stronger. I know better than to turn around, but against my better judgment  I did it anyway. "HELLO? I KNOW YOU'RE OUT THERE! IF YOU COME OUT NOW I WON'T KILL YOU WHERE YOU STAND!" I didn't even have to start a countdown, and out came Louis (Lestat's fledgling). He looked worried. "Have you seen Lestat?" He asked calmly. As if he's afraid to even look at me.
"I haven't seen Lestat in two weeks. He probably just went to see Marius in the Mediterranean. "
"OK...thanks." off into the woods he went. I always thought he hated Lestat.
I don't want anyone to find me.so I left. I took flight to North Carolina. Back to where it all went down. I didn't eat or hunt. I would rest, then keep passing each state. Ready to do it all over again until I hit my home state.

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TW: SUICIDE IDEATION. IF YOU OR SOMEBODY YOU KNOW IS SUICIDAL. THERE IS HOPE OUT THERE.
NSPH: 1-800-273-8255

I stood in the cemetery across the street from my mama's house, and I felt a lot of regret. I wish I never stripped her memories of me from her. We may not have got along everyday, but I still loved her. I would always make sure she was safe. Even though they probably wouldn't have done the same for me. I watched them all the way until the sun went down.
   Then it hit me. I knew what I had to do to keep all the vampires safe. I would have to sleep. Just as Akasha did thousands of years ago. She also lost her will to drink blood. I already feel like I'm losing my will too.
    I'm so tired.