Dangerous...(a one direction fanfic)

* Every Goodbye Is Hard *

It was the morning of Josh's funeral and I woke up with a bad headache.I put my black dress on, did my hair then I went downstairs.Jess sat beside Liam on the sofa, she was also wearing a black dress like me, I gave her a weak smile before hugging her.

''It's time to say goodbye to him''I whispered into her shoulder as we hugged.

''It's going to be hard''She replied, I could tell she was holding back the tears.

''Every goodbye is hard''I said pulling away from the hug to wipe away the tears that escaped my eyes.I don't know if I will be able to say my speech without breaking down...

Liam dropped us off at the church, Harry and the other boys were supposed to come as well but they said they had 'Business' to sort out.I suppose me and Harry aren't on good terms right now, he's just so aggressive and he's always getting in to fights.

''Come on Lex''Jess said opening the car door, snapping me from my thoughts

.''Bye Li-Li''We said at the same time,''Bye''He said before driving away.

We sat through the ceremony in silence

,''Now a close friend of Josh would like to say a few words, come up Lexi''The man said with a sympathetic smile.I stood up, my legs already felt like jelly, the man gave me a small nod before walking away leaving me stood alone facing a crowd of tear stained faces

.''Josh was one of my best friends, he was always there for me, we've had so many memories some good and some bad, I thought we'd be together forever that we'd never be apart but I suppose nothing lasts forever, Not even if you want it too.But I know one thing that will last forever and that's the memory of this 17 year old boy, who was too young to be taken away.Josh I just want you to know that no matter what happens nobody will ever forget your smile, your laugh, your voice, you...''I said as tears trickled down my cheeks.Then a song started to play it was 'Why-Rascall Flatts'...The song fitted Josh perfectly.I just wish he was still here to laugh at my stupidity, but now he's gone...forever...

After the ceremony Me and Jess stood outside the church, I had already sent Liam a text to tell him to pick us up, now we were just waiting for him.

''I'm going to miss him''Jess said looking down at her feet,

''I already do''I replied holding back the tears.I'm sick of crying,I'm sick of the pain,I'm sick of life...

Liam's car pulled up and we climbed inside,

''You okay girls?''Liam said whilst giving us a sympathetic smile.We nodded a yes before Liam started the car.It was a silent drive apart from a few mumbles between us.

''We're here love''Liam said opening the door for me to get out.I gave him a weak smile and got out of his car, he closed the car door behind me before following me into my house.My mum should be back soon, I miss her, I usually like it when my mum is gone but now I feel so lonely.I walked into the living room to see Zayn.Louis,Niall,Allissia,Eleanour,Danielle and Harry sat watching 'Love Actually'.Why do all the boys have bruised faces? they've all been fighting again... Then my attention was drawn to Allissia.Why was she here? I don't mind because she's El and Dani's friend but she better not try anything with Harry. Everyone looked at us as we entered the room, well everyone except Harry.

''Hey, you okay?''Zayn said to me as I took a seat beside him.I gave him a small nod, tying to fight these stupid tears, but I obviously didn't fight enough.Zayn wiped away the tears from my cheeks and pulled me into a hug

.''He's gone Zayn, he's gone...forever''I sobbed into his shoulder,Zayn rubbed small circles into my back

''Sshh it's okay,I promise, you have us still''He said trying to soothe me.I pulled away and looked into Zayn's eyes, wow they're beautiful, NO Lexi you can't say that you're with Harry

.''I need to take a nap''I said to everyone about to walk up the stairs

.''Oh Lex wait, can we all stay tonight, we won't be too much trouble''Louis asked.

''Yeah sure, I'll be down later after my nap and we'll have a sleepover''I said trying to sound enthusiastic.

''Thanks''The all said together.I gave them a nod and smile before going to take a nap...