I don't think I love you anymore...
I don't smile to the sound of your name anymore,
just like how I expected I never would.
I don't look forward to seeing you anymore.
I hate myself because of you look what you did.
We were strangers before friends.
From friends to lovers we grew closer began to understand one another better,
or so we thought... you broke me in pieces.
You promised you'd stay but you left.
You fucking left when you said you won't.
You made me incapable of trusting anyone ever again.
Incapable of letting anyone in, incapable of opening up to anyone ever again
I loved you... with all my heart...
There's a smile on my lips and Heaven knows its fake...
Its like I am not me anymore...
I don't wanna do anything you wrecked me and left me numb.
I can't feel anything anymore...
my eyes are sore from all the crying,
my heart hurts and it feels as if I cant breathe like I am gasping for air each time
and as if the water has risen up to my nose
and that every breath I take is sinking me
drowning me in blue,
my head feels light
and my hair starts to float to the rhythm of the tides.
I tried to scream but my head was underwater.
The warmth of the sea can't even comfort the storm in me.
Its like I wasn't meant to exist like I was just a bloody mistake...
then why don't you kill me end it all?
Why would you destroy me in such a fascinating way that I can't get over the pain...
Its like my mind craves for it even if it hurts.
Like a slow poison with a blissful death.
Kill me whole and free my soul
so that it continues to cherish everything that you've ever done...
Kill me please
~ MS ❤️
