Mending His Heart

01

Henry Jensen

" five more minutes ! "

I asked mom as she was getting to clean all the mess up . I can see from outside my room window that she rushed to insert the box in the truck. I don't want all of this to be the last . I don't want to leave this comfortable room . It hits me so munch all the memories we all have just disappear . " did we make a good choice ? " This is something that I asked myself everyday in a month until this day . I try to gather my strength. and when I return to pick up the last box , i saw the last box .

Someone written his name in there , Benjamin . I missed him .

I put everything in the truck , let out a long sigh and mom patted me on the shoulder with a face that said "disrespectful" I just nodded . Mom locked the door and thanked the truck driver before getting into the car .

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I snapped back when Mom calls my name , didn't realize I was looking at our house. maybe it has become our old house.

Do we need to call them Ex-house ? Just like Ex-Girlfriend?

Haha ..

I ran into the car and sat in the back seat while taking out some gum to chew. Trying to distract myself from getting overwhelmed with all those thing happen at once . Mom looked at me from the rearview mirror and smiled.
I know .

I see .

We met eyes at that time. I quickly turned my gaze away from her . While she keep asking me and try to discuss together about giving her some idea for our lunch since its 12 pm now . I told her that I'm okay with everything she bought . " sooo Henry , I guess you will got
yourself new friend huh ? "

" I guess so " I leaned over the window a bit more , as I take off my side earphone to get my hearing more better .

" What sport club you will join Henry ? " she asked a question while turning the car to the left .

" Chess "

" Oh come on boy , We both know you sucked and I even beat you lot in chess "

" Auch mom " she laughed when heard my respond . I love her smile , mom is everything for me I'll protect her from the accident again and again .
She started a conversation still not gave up after hearing my monosyllable answers . I don't want have a conversation right now though .

" How about we have trumpet giraffe now ?" That's caught
my attention .

I used to not be able to say the " truth " . The word " truth " was difficult for me when I was a child, so we will use an easier word and mom suggest to using Trumpet Giraffe instead cause I want to be tall as Giraffe so that it make me easier to play basketball . About trumpet it just friendly name all our family decided .

" yeah , whats your question "

" mmhmm do you still want to play basketball ?"

oh ?

I tell her the truth , that I don't want anything here that reminds me of him . I told her it's being hard time when I know it's my fault that he just .. like .. that ? I don't even realized I have raised my voice to mom . Yeah, my reason always " I don't realized that happen " " what happen just now ? " It just all the fake reason to hide my act .

I just need it gone .

My throat tightens and I falter over these last few words .
" I told you , It's not your fault Henry Jensen . You just a kid and he did what he need to "

I think mom notices I'm in not in good state as she immediately giving up searching topic for us.

upset . I'm so upset with my own existence .

I feel sorry for her all out of sudden even though she's the one who bring this up after what our discussion before . But Mom action haven't been malicious ; she just want to have normal conversation with her son . She just hadn't clue how munch things happen before . So now I try to asked her some question that she probably will answer it back without not munch thinking.

" Can we go bookstore at our new house . And- "

" yeah ? "

" I want you to come with me and suggest some books for me too .. I guess ? " Her face lit up and I feels a bit relieved .

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It was two o'clock in the afternoon. I was heading towards the bus station with Ray after Mrs Anne's extra class. The sun was beating mercilessly on my back and I could feel my sweat trickling down my spine. I have often wished that mom would allow me to ride a motorcycle to school. She says that I am not ready but we both know that she is terrified that a car would knock me down.
When I reached the bus station, it was nearly empty except for a handful of boys. Ray and I strode to a bench near the stationmaster's office. I could feel the tension on my shoulders as the straps of my school bag ate into my shoulder. "Where is the bus?" I sighed to myself.
" I look like a shit " Ray said while taking out a comb from his side bag pocket. He start brush his hair properly .

He seriously need help .

" You've always look better " I replied back with monotone as I take glance him for a sec .

" WAIT A DAMN MINUTE HENRY ?! DID YOU JUST FLIRTED WITH ME ?"
" Ray shut the fuck up . People might think us wrong " I already saw people staring at us weirdly but I ignore them cause they don't know how crazy this jerk can be .

" let's go to bookstore before go home , mate "

" sure "

Suddenly, someone shouted and I saw a bus swerved into the station. I got up, thankful cause I can help my mom now . The group of boys were jostling each other to get into the bus.. The black fumes made me nauseous.

All of a sudden, people started appearing from all directions to board their bus. In no time, the passengers were packed like books in library. It started to move, leaving some unfortunate passengers behind. The bus swerved out of the station again. It left another trail of black smoke it was from the conductor himself . he put a sticker not to smoke but he did it himself .

" Could have been at bookstore sooner if we ride the motorcycle ." Ray jokes . Or he just told what he feels ? Should I laugh or just smile to him ? I guess I'll not do both and just keep silent and nodded . This is the best choice I've had .