On The Clock (Book 2)

Chapter 9: Focus On Yourself

As it was that I had in fact just seemed to stand there, and I seemed to sit on the toilet, all at the exact same time too, at that. That was when I just then did in fact seem to just close my eyes for just a few seconds, at that. As I was in a private bathroom at the gym right now, all at the exact same time too.
I knew that it was that I was in fact alone right now, as I was perfectly fine with that, never the less, as I kind of felt like it was that I was in fact feeling better as to the fact that I knew that I was alone right now. As I felt like I did not want any one around me, all at the exact same time too.
I felt like I had a let of stress and a lot of weight that was in fact on me, all at the exact same time too. As a lot of that was of course coming from the fact that it was that Xavier was pushing me very hard, all at the exact same time too, never the less. As well as the fact that it was that I also knew that it was that we had in fact just lost our last 4 games, all at the exact same time too, at that.
As we were now 1-5 going in to the conference play, all at the exact same time too, at that. Which meant of course as to the fact that it was that we were in fact going to have to win our conference tournament, all at the exact same time too.
If it was that we did in fact want to try to run for states, all at the exact same time too. Which was of course for some odd reason my main goal for this year, all at the exact same time too, never the less. For some odd reason or another, all at the exact same time too. As I knew that it did not make all too much sense as to just what it was that I was even thinking about right now, all at the exact same time too.
I knew that it was that we did not have a single shot at states just yet, all at the exact same time too. As I felt like it was that we simply just needed to get our school on the map this year, all at the exact same time as well. As I knew that it was ot course, all at the exact same time too, at that.
That I knew that Xavier was right, and that it was that I did in fact have 3 more years in high school after this year, all at the exact same time too. Right now, I should not be focused what so ever on my ranking, all at the exact same time as well. As that would more than likely come around my Junior year, all at the exact same time too.
I knew that it was that I needed to calm my self down, all at the exact same time too, all at once. As in the end, I just then did in fact seem to just start to get my mind, and my focus off of all of the rest of those other thoughts that it was that it kind of felt like I had in fact even been thinking on long before now, all at once, at that.
As I just then did in fact begin to start to lfit my self up off of the seat, all at the exact same time too. As I knew that it was that I had not come in to the bath room to take a shit what so ever, all at the exact same time too. As it was just the simple fact that it was that I felt like I needed some time to my self, to think, never the less.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to start to lift my self up from my seat, all at the exact same time too. That was when I just then did in fact seem to just start to head right on over to just where it was that the sink was, all at the exact same time too. As I just then was about to turn it on, all at the exact same time as well, even though I really knew as to the fact that I really did not need to do as such a thing like that what so ever, all at the exact same time too.
As I just then did in fact seem to start to hear a loud knocking on the door, all at the exact same time too. Which did in fact make me jump back a little bit, all at the exact same time as well. As I had in fact of course, not been expecting it what so ever, all at the exact same time too, all at once.
As I had not realized that it was that some one had in fact been waiting for me to come out of the bath room for this long, all at the exact same time too, all at once. But just as it was that I had in fact just seemed to kind of think on those kind of thoughts, all at the exact same time too. That was when I just then did in fact begin to start to realize that it did not make all too much sense as to why some one would do that, rather than trying to open the door first, at that.
That was when I just then did in fact hear the loud voice, all at the exact same time too, of Xavier, at that. As it was that it was in fact clear that he was in fact speaking to me, all at the exact same time as well. And that it was that he was in fact waiting for me to get out of here, all at the exact same time too, at that.
As it was that I had in fact just kind of began to start to realize that it was in fact him. As he was in fact the one who was in fact doing as such a thing that he had in fact done, at that. That was when I just then did in fact seem to just start to listen as to just what ever it was that Xavier did in fact feel like he even needed to say to me, all at the exact same time as well, never the less.
"Are you about done in there kid? You know that we need to do some weights..." He said to me, all at the exact same time too, at that. As a let out quite a bit of a heavy groan to my self, all at the exact same time too. Just as soon as it was that he had in fact said as to just what it was that he had even said to me, never the less.
As it was that I had in fact just kind of seemed to start to realize as to the fact that it was that I knew as to just what it was that I was about to do, all at the exact same time too. That was when I just then did in fact begin to start to go right on ahead, all at once. And I just then did in fact seem to start to suddenly go right on, all at the exact same time too.
And I just then did in fact seem to turn on the sink, all at the exact same time as well, at that. As I made sure that it was that it was on cold water, all at the exact same time too. As I knew that it was that I was not washing my hands what so ever, all at the exact same time too, at that.
As I just then did in fact seem to start to go right on ahead, all at the exact same time too, all at once. And I just then did in fact put some water in to my hands, all at the exact same time too, all at once, once again. And I just then did in fact seem to put the cold water on to my face, all at once.
I felt a lot better as soon as it was that I had in fact just seemed to do as such a thing like that, all at once. As it did in fact remove all of the sweat that was in fact on my face, all at the exact same time too, at that. As I knew that it was that it was some what warm out side, all at the exact same time as well, never the less.
As I knew that it was of course, none the less. That it was about to be the spring, at that. And that this gym really did not have the best AC in the world, as that did not help with the fact that it was that it felt really hot due to the fact that I was doing so much work, all at the exact same time too, all at once, at that.
I grunted quite a bit to my self once again, all at the exact same time as well, at that. As in the end, I just then did in fact seem to start to lift my head up, all at once, at that. and I just then did in fact seem to just start to look at my self right in to the mirror, all at once.
As just as it was that I had in fact just seemed to start to do as such a thing like that, all at the exact same time too, at that. That was when I just then did in fact seem to start to notice, all at the exact same time too. That just as it was that I had in fact heard before, all at once, at that. That there was in fact some more loud knocking on the bath room door, at that.
As it was that I had in fact just began to start to realize that it was in fact Xavier, once again. This time it did not seem to scare me what so ever, all at once, at that. As I just then did in fact seem to start to turn my head on over to just where it was that the door was at, all at the exact same time too.
And I just then did in fact feel like I was a bit upset. As to the fact that it felt like I was in fact being rushed, all at the exact same time too. Which was of course some thing that it was that Xavier had promised my mother that he would not do. As I just then did in fact seem to start to yell right back on over to him, a bit in an angry voice, all at the exact same time too.
"Jesus! Will you give me a second?" I yelled to him, all at the exact same time too, at that. As I of course did in fact hear a single thing back from the door, all at the exact same time too. As I wondered for a second if it was that Xavier had in fact already left the door, all at the exact same time as well, never the less, at that.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to stand there, and I had in fact just seemed to stare for just a few moments of some time, at that. That was when I felt like it was probably not best for me to test him, all at the exact same time too, at that. As I just then did in fact seem to just start to go right on ahead, all at once.
And I just then did in fact seem to start to head on over to just where it was that the door was in fact even at in the very first place any ways. As I just then did in fact seem to start to open it all of the sudden. Right after it was that I had in fact unlocked it of course, all at the exact same time as well.
As just as soon as it was that I had in fact kind of just seemed to start to do as such a thing like that, all at once. That was when I just then saw that to no such sort of surprise to me what so ever, at that. That it was that Xavier was in fact staring at me right now. As he did in fact have his eyes a little bit wide for some odd reason or another, all at the exact same time too.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to start to stare at Xavier right in to his eyes, all at the exact same time too, all at once, at that. That was when he just then did in fact begin to start to go right on ahead, all at the exact same time as well, at that. And he just then did in fact seem to start to speak to me, all at the exact same time as well.
As it was clear to me that it was that he knew that it was that I did in fact have my full attention on to him right now, all at once, at that. As I kind of just seemed to squint my eyes at him, all at the exact same time as well. And I just then did in fact seem to just start to begin to listen as to just what ever it was that he did in fact feel like he even needed to say to me in the very first place any ways, at that.
"Alright... Let's get back at it!" He said, as he just then did in fact seem to have a big smile on his face, just as soon as it was that he had in fact even just said as to just what it was that he had even said to me, at that. As I kind of just seemed to roll my eyes a bit on over towards him, just as soon as it was that he had said that to me.
Even if it was that I knew that he had already turned his head away from me, at that. And that it was that he had in fact just seemed to go right on ahead, all at the exact same time too. And I just then did in fact seem to start to head on over to just where it was that I felt he was taking me over to. As it was clear that he was wanting to get right back on to it, at that.
I felt like he was pressuring me a little bit too hard right now, if it was that I was not going to lie to my self. As I knew that it was that I was so worn out every day, and I woke up feeling tired all of the time. Only to know that it was just going to be another day of this, as the only time that it felt like I had a day off at the gym.
Was when it was that we did in fact have to go to basketball practice. Which also was not easy what so ever, as he made us sprint, and do laps a lot of the time at that. Which a lot of the times did in fact kind of feel like it did in fact make me even more tired.
I was not all too sure as to just what it was that I was in fact complaining about right now how ever. As I knew that it was that what it was that I was doing right now. Was what it was that I needed to do non stop if it was that I did in fact want to make it to the NBA, just like it was that I had always dreamed about of course, all at the exact same time too, at that.
As it was that I had in fact just kind of seemed to think on that for just a little bit more time, all at the exact same time too. That was when I just also did in fact kind of realize that it was that I was in fact grateful for the fact. That it was that Xavier had in fact came in to my life on the fact that it was that I had always wanted to have a father, all at the exact same time as well.
As my mother had never really told me all that much about my father. Besides the fact that it was that she had told me that he had in fact loved me. Xavier was perfect for me right now, as I knew that my mother loved him. As I knew that I for sure loved my mother for one thing, all at the exact same time too.
But also as to the fact that it was that of course, once again. That I knew that it was that they loved each other to death, all at the exact same time too. This was not only what it was that I felt like I needed in my life. As I knew that my mother always told me as to the fact that it was that was why Xavier was in fact here in the very first place any ways, never the less.
But I also kind of felt like it was some one that my mother had also kind of needed at that. As she had always been going back in forth between relationships for a very long time. As most dudes just wanted to smash her and then leave. As I knew that my mother was 29, and they really did not want to have to deal with the fact that they had to deal with me as a teenager, all at the exact same time too.
I some times felt like I was a waste of space, and I felt like I was in fact a waste of existence in this world, all at the exact same time too. But then again, I felt like I might simply just be going too hard on my self, all at the exact same time too, at that. As I just then did in fact seem to start to go right on ahead, all at the exact same time as well, all at once.
And I just then did in fact begin to start to hear the loud voice of Xavier from quite a bit of some distance away, all at the exact same time too. As it was that he was in fact yelling to me, all at the exact same time as well. As it was clear that he was trying to get my focus back on to just what it was that was even going on right now. And as to just what it was that was even happening in the presence, all at the exact same time too, at that.
As it was that I had in fact just kind of stood there, and I had in fact kind of stared for not all too much longer, all at the exact same time too. That was when I just then did in fact seem to notice that it was that Xavier was in fact standing right at the front of the door to the weight room right now, all at the exact same time too. And it was clear that he was in fact waiting on me, all at once, at that.
Just as soon as I had in fact kind of started to wake my self up as to the fact that it was in fact the case, all at the exact same time too, all at once. That was when I just then did in fact seem to start to blink my eyes a few times at first, all at once. As in the end, I just then did in fact seem to start to go right on ahead, all at once.
And I just then decided that it was that I was in fact going to go on ahead and nod back on over towards him. As it was now clear that it was to the both of us right now, all at the exact same time too. That I was in fact letting him know that I did in fact have my full attention on to just what it was that he did in fact feel like he even needed to say to me right now, at that.
As it was that he had in fact just sort of kind of seemed to see me do as such a thing like that all of the sudden, all at once, at that. That was when he just then did in fact seem to just start to continue to go right on ahead. And he just then did in fact seem to just start to continue to speak to me. As I of course just then did in fact seem to start to begin to listen as to just what ever it was that he did in fact feel like he even needed to say to me in the very first place any ways, never the less, at that, once again.
"Are you coming with me or not? We still have a long ways to go for the day... If you really are too tired, we can quit... But you may as well just toss your hopes and dreams of becoming a superstar in basketball down the dreams if you keep doing this..." He said, as he reminded me that this was not the first time that it was that I felt like I had in fact given up on this, all at the exact same time too.
As I kind of felt quite a bit bad about it all, if it was that I was not going to lie to my self either. I kind of just seemed to let out quite a bit of a rough sigh to my self, all at once, once again. As in the end, I just then did in fact seem to start to get my mind. And I just then did in fact seem to start to get my focus off of all of the rest of those other thoughts that it was that I had in fact kind of just seemed to be thinking on long before now, never the less.
I did my best to just try to keep my self as calm, and as normal as I felt like I possibly could all at once, at that. As I knew that it was that Xavier did in fact have quite a bit of a fair point on just what it was that he had in fact even just said to me, never the less. As I knew that I could not keep doing as to just what it was that I felt like I was about to do right now.
Like I had said earlier, my mother had told Xavier not too push me too hard, and if I needed to stop. Than it was that it was going to be my choice to stop, all at the exact same time too. I knew that every time that it was that I did in fact stop how ever, I knew that was when it was that Xavier did not ever seem to be all too happy as to just what it was that I had even done in the very first place any ways, never the less.
I kind of just did my best to try to keep my self as calm, and as normal as I felt like I possibly could in the mean time, all at the exact same time too. As in the end, I just then did in fact seem to start to go right on ahead, all at the exact same time too, at that. And I just then did in fact seem to start to speak back to Xavier, all at the exact same time as well, never the less.
As just as it was that it had in fact just kind of seemed like I had in fact just began to start to do as such a thing like that, all at the exact same time as well, never the less. That was when I just then did in fact seem to start to see as to the fact all at once, at that. That Xavier then did in fact seem to just start to nod right back on over towards me. As it was clear that he was in fact letting me know that he was in fact paying his full attention on to just what ever it was that I did in fact feel like I even needed to say to him, all at the exact same time too, at that.
As it was that I had in fact just kind of sort of began to start to realize that it was in fact the case, all at the exact same time as well. That was when I just then did in fact seem to start to continue to go right on ahead my self, all at once. And I just then did in fact seem to start to speak back to Xavier from across the hall way, all at the exact same time too. As I knew that it was of course, that he was in fact just then beginning to start to listen as to just what ever it was that I did in fact feel like I even needed to say to him in the very first place any ways, all at the exact same time too.
"Yes... I am coming... Sorry... I just have a lot of thoughts in my head..." I said to him, all at the exact same time too, as it was that I almost seemed like it was that each and every time it was that I told him that. That he was going to be like it was that my mother was, all at the exact same time too.
And he was going to tell me if it was that if I wanted to talk about it, all at the exact same time too. But of course, he never really wanted to hear as to just what it was that went on in my head in fact in the very first place any ways, never the less. As he always simply just went on to the next topic, each and every time that it was that I did in fact seem to tell him as such a thing like that, all at once.
I kind of just let out a little bit of a soft sigh to my self, all at the exact same time too, at that. As I kind of felt like that was what made me feel so much more better, all at the exact same time too, at that. As my therapist told me that it was that I should speak my thoughts, and not let it bottle up in my head, all at the exact same time too.
But when ever it was that it did in fact seem like it was that I did in fact seem to do as such a thing like that, all at the exact same time as well. That was when it was that it felt like things always did in fact seem to go bad, all at the exact same time too. As I felt like this was a lot better for me, as I knew as to just what it was that I was doing. And I knew as to just what it was that it was for, all at the exact same time too.
As it was that I had in fact just kind of seemed to think on those thoughts for just a few moments longer, all at the exact same time as well. That was when I just then did in fact seem to start to continue to go right on ahead, all at the exact same time too, at that. And I just then did in fact seem to start to continue to hear the voice of Xavier, as it was clear to me that once again, he was in fact speaking to me.
I felt a bit bad, and a bit guilty as to just what it was that I was even doing right at this very moment in time any ways, all at once, at that. As I just then did in fact seem to start to continue to go right on ahead, all at once. And I then did in fact seem to start to lift my head on up towards Xavier, all at the exact same time as well.
Just as it was that I had in fact just seemed to start to do as such a thing like that all of the sudden. I then did in fact seem to just start to blink my eyes a few times, all at once. And in the end, I just then did in fact seem to start to go right on ahead and nod on over to just where it was that Xavier was speaking to me from right now. As it was clear that it was that I was in fact paying my full attention on to just what ever it was that he felt like he even needed to say to me right now, at that.
Just as it was that he had in fact just seemed to start to see, and he had in fact just seemed to notice that it was that I had of course done as such a thing like that, all at the exact same time too, at that. That was when he just then did in fact seem to start to continue to go right on ahead. And he just then did in fact seem to start to continue to speak on over to just where it was that I was at once again. As I of course just then did in fact seem to start to listen as to just what ever it was that he did in fact feel like he even needed to say to me, all at the exact same time too, at that.
"Alright Trevor! Are you coming or not! You said you were!" He said to me, as I saw that it was that he did in fact have his eyes squinted on me, all at the exact same time too, just as soon as it was that he had in fact just seemed to say as to just what it was that he had even said to me, at that.
As it was that I had in fact just kind of seemed to realize as to just what it was that he had in fact even just said to me in the very first place any ways, never the less. That was when I just then did in fact seem to start to wake my self up quite a bit, all at the exact same time too, and I just then did in fact seem to start to begin to head on over to just where it was that Xavier was in fact even waiting for me at right at this very moment in time too.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to start to jog down the hall way, all at the exact same time too. That was when Xavier did in fact seem to start to open the door for me, all at the exact same time as well. As he just then did in fact seem to start to let me in to the room that it was that we were about to head on over to, all at the exact same time too, at that.
As soon as it was that I had in fact seemed to go in to that room, all at the exact same time too. That was when I just then did in fact seem to start to gulp as to just what it was that I did in fact even seem to see right in front of me right now. As I saw a bunch of grown men that were probably over twice my size, all at the exact same time too.
As they all seemed to just be lifting some very heavy weight with their partners, all at the exact same time as well, at that. As I saw that it was that their muscles seemed to be off of this world, all at the exact same time too, at that. As I had thought that it was that Xavier had in fact seemed to have big muscles, all at the exact same time too, but it was clear that I was wrong, all at the exact same time too.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to stand there, and I had in fact just seemed to stare for just a few seconds longer, all at once. That was when I heard the door close behind me, all at the exact same time too. As I turned my head around, all at the exact same time as well, at that. And I just then did in fact seem to start to notice, and I just then did in fact seem to start to see that it was of course.
That Xavier was now in the weight room with me, all at once. As I just kind of seemed to stare at him with my eyes wide, all at the exact same time too, all at once, at that. Before it was that I had in fact just seemed to start to go right on ahead, all at once, at that. And I just then did in fact seem to start to go right on ahead. And I then did in fact seem to start to speak to him, all at once.
As it was that I had in fact just kind of seemed to start to do as such a thing like that, all at the exact same time too, once again. That was when I just then did in fact seem to start to squint his eyes, all at the exact same time too, right on over towards me. As it was clear to me at the very least. That he was in fact paying his full attention to just what ever ever it was that I did in fact feel like I even needed to say to him, all at once, at that.
As it was that I had in fact just kind of sort of began to start to realize that it was in fact the case, all at the exact same time as well, all at once. That was when I just then did in fact seem to start to continue to speak to him. As I now knew that it was that he was in fact just seeming to listen to listen as to just what ever it was that I did in fact feel like I even needed to say to him, all at once.
"Um... I don't think I'm supposed to be in here... Is there not an age limit or some thing? These dudes are so much bigger than even you!" I said to him, all at the exact same time too, never the less, all at once. As I stared at Xavier for just a few more moments of time, as it was that I still did in fact have my eyes quite a bit wide, as soon as it was that I had in fact just seemed to do as such a thing like that, all at once.
As I was not all too sure as to just what it was that I should even do for one thing, nor as to just what it was that was even going on right now. I kind of gulped a bit heavily to my self, all at once, at that. As it was that I saw that these grown men were in fact lifting heavy weights that I felt like I could not even imagine trying to do as such a thing my self, as if it was no such sort of problem what so ever, at that, all at the exact same time too.
I kind of just seemed to let out quite a bit of a rough, and quite a bit of a heavy sigh to my self, all at once, all at the exact same time too. As I just then did in fact seem to start to see, and I just then did in fact seem to just start to notice that it was, that all at the exact same time as well, at that. That Xavier just then did in fact seem to start to shake his head a little bit on over towards me, all at once.
I was in fact a little bit lost as to just what it was that was even going on at first, at that. As I just then did in fact seem to start to turn my head right back on over towards him, all at the exact same time too. And I just then did in fact seem to just start to stare him right in to his eyes, all at the exact same time as well, for just a little bit of some time, at that.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to start to do as such a thing like that, all at once. That was when I just then in the end, all at the exact same time too, at that. I then did in fact seem to just start to nod right on over towards him, at that. As I let him know that I was in fact paying attention on to just what ever it was that he felt like he even needed to say on over towards me, all at once, at that.
As soon as it was that he had in fact just seemed to start to see me do as such a thing like that, all at once. That was when he just then did in fact seem to just start to continue to speak to me, all at the exact same time too, at that. As I of course, just then did in fact seem to start to begin to start to listen as to just what ever it was that he did in fact feel like he even did in fact need to say to me, all at the exact same time as well, never the less.
"Just ignore them... I would look like them too if I had not quit... You just need to focus on yourself..."