Day Ones

Chapter V: "Credit The Game"

Is he worth it...
That's whats going through my mind while the gun is aimed at his head. "Shoot me nigga! Go head shoot your blood." Antwan said. Everybody in the room started looking at me to see if I was gonna go with my move. I got a girl and daughter at home to worry about, if I get caught this can take me away from my family, but if I dont kill him, he gonna try and come back and kill me. Thats what was going through my mind. "Look bruh, if you cant do it, I understand." Jayon said. "CAUSE HE PUSSY!" Antwan yells out. "Aye bruh just go to the car we got this." Martez says. I look at everybody in the room and then I look down at Antwan, then shake my head with shame and then slowly walks out the room. I close the door and begin walking down the steps. POW! POW! POW! POW! POW! I drop my head. Crazy part about it, Antwan was one of my favorite cousins, he was my right hand man, but that just goes to show you that you cant even trust family in this dirty game.

I get in the car and I pull to the other side of the road, closer to the house. Everybody runs out, hops in, and I skurt off. We pull up to the abandoned spot and get out to our own seperate cars. I poor gas on the Stoley (stole car) and then light a match. It burns hot like hell on a summer day. Everybody hops in there car and drive off but I sit in mines for a minute. I pull my phone out and text Jazmine. "They just found Ant dead @ his crib," is what I text Jazmine. She texts back quick "WAIT WHAT? Wya, come home, this is crazy." I pull off and make my way home. The whole time im thinking bout my cousin. "Why do I feel so bad when he did me so wrong?" is what I ask myself. Was I wrong? Should I just left it alone? it doesn't matter now because Antwan is gone and it aint nothing I can change about that. I get to a stop light. I spark up the blunt I had rolled up earlier. Tears coming down my face but I aint sad. I had killed before so what made this any different? Shit I dont know...fuck it.

I pulled up to the house and park the car in the driveway. I guess Jazmine heard me because she runs out and soon as I get out the car, she hugs me so tight. She starts crying on my chest and tears come from my eyes but I try to stay strong and fight it. I tell her stay strong but she says, "I cant anymore." I ask why? She says, "Because Antwan might be Aubrey's real daddy." "WHAT THE FUCK!" I push her off me. She starts crying harder, "Im sorry!" she says. "Nah Fuck that Jazmine!" I yell. I hop in the car and backout the drive way and speeds off quickly. I speed pass two red lights without stopping. Im finna pass another one before I hear BEEP!