─── 𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 ,, ᵃᵉᵗʰᵉʳ

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acceptance. one word that keeps circling to [name]'s mind.

[name] finally learned to accept her current situation. aether is not and will not show up.

"damn. that fast..." she whispered, tears escaping from her eyes.

her childhood friend that she have loved all these years, failed to show up to her confession.

the only time she had the courage to admit her feelings.

"if only i've confessed a long time ago..." she said, grasping the letter on her hand tightly—to the point where it crumpled.

the letter wasn't the same letter she held earlier with care anymore.

she was so careful with it before to the point where she put it inside a folder just to avoid it being crumpled.

now just like her heart, it was ruined.

she was now holding it with regret.

regret because she didn't do things earlier.

regret because she didn't accept her feelings earlier.

regret because she didn't confess her feelings earlier.

regret because she was such a coward.

regret because she was too late.

she just sat on the grass full of regret.

she was crying in regret.

she does not blame aether though, she thinks it's all her fault.

'i'm a coward anyways...'

'i've always been scared to accept my feelings.'

'but it was because i was so afraid of rejection.'

'today's the day i have made those fears disappear.'

'or at least i thought...'

'i never knew indirect rejection can hurt this bad.'

'i never knew loving someone can hurt this bad.'

[name] thought she has finally learned how to accept rejection.

she was not prepared enough.

'i shouldn't have done this.' she thought as she stands up, wiping the tears from her face.

the letter was still on her grip, she never let go.

when will she be able to let go then?

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