Broken.
I lost so many chances to do things I want to and chances to be with people I love because I was always terrified.
I was always terrified of the consequences of my actions and decisions, the thought of what people would say if I excell or if I fail, the feeling of being a burden to someone, to be betrayed by someone I trust, to be abandoned by friends, to be hurt by someone I love.
All along I thought I was okay.
All along I thought I was protecting myself.
All along I thought I was building myself.
All along I thought I was right.
I was so terrified of how others could hurt me but I never thought I was the one hurting me.
I feel so broken.
