It was started from yesterday when I came back from school like i am feeling veryy uneasy . I myself can't understand what's happening to mee . Whenever I come from my coaching i think of must be some people messaged me but nope there are messages but not that much i expected . Me and My favourite person didn't talked from 9 and it was sucking me like hell . Like what's the matter , are u okayy?? , u fine ?? , Did something happened . I was sadly gone to sleep 🥲 . Today In school i was not understanding what's the matter . Only when I started the topic then only Palak was talking to me and i was like what happened why don't u say anything else , today why don't u said Acchaaaaa with the cutee smiling face. And Abhilasha I am now also thinking that did she spoke to me anything todayy . I am just unable to understand my feelings. Kritika is also not showing up its 6:30 now she usually come back at this time but no . I am feeling like my fear is coming truee . My friends are ignoring me 💔💔💔. Today whenever I got a notification a smile comes on my face by thinking that someone messaged me but no theseee fucking app notification these must be hunged . U know i want to tell what's happening to mee it's like i go to school come back to home . 2-6:30 itna time hai mere paas coaching jane mai lekin hum khana 2-3 khate hai fir tv dekhne lag jate hai 3-5 . Beech mai hw yaad agaya to wo thoda suru karte hai ki 3 manus a jata hai . 6:30 baje tution jao fir 7:30 tak wapas fir Ghar Akai bhi ek aur tution karo 7:30 sai 8:30 kabhi kabhi to 9 bhi baj jataa hai . Ab dimag ho jataa hai mera baand . Sochtai hai thoda bahut accha sai baat ho jayee kisi sai bhi lekin wo bhi nhi ho pataa. Kaise kaise 10 baj jataa hai . Khanaa kha lo to uskai baad neend ane lagta hai lekin fir bhi hum sochte hai kyaa pataa koi thoda sa abhi hi baat karle lekin nhi busyy busyyy . 6 months mai boards hai lekin Mera dimag iss chiz kai liyai prepared hi nhi haii . Hum kyaa kar rahe hai humko khud ko kuch samjh nhi a rahaa. I am not going to do it seriously but yaa i once had a thought of do suicide let's end this heree . Na rahengai hum na rahega kuchh . So at 8:13 Kritika finally messaged me but me busy at the 2nd tution . I messaged till 8:54 . I just tell u jab bhi baat karte hai na chahe jitna bhi kam kyu na ho chehre pai ek khushi a hi jata hai yrr 😌😌 . Kyaa mast detail mai baat bataye hai accha laga sunn kai .
Now me thinking should I post this or not . I know if i would ask Kritika and Palak (both the readers)they would sayy yaa ofcourse . Lekin nhi batayengai na to batane ka chul macha rahegaa .
I know yai jab bhi post karengai both girls will get angry at mee or u not angryyy . Tell telll ??!!
