"Because Love Grows Where My Rosemary Goes", A wilbur soot x reader story

"It'll be okay"

ALRIGHT GUYS THIS IS MOSTLY SAD DREAM SOOOOO YEAH

ALSO YAY MORE Y/N BACK STORY

It rained the day clay left. His carriage was already outside at 7:30 when he wasn't supposed to leave till eight.

His arms were around me tightly as if afraid once he let go I would simply disappear. My arms were also around him scared of the same thing.

Sapnap and george were staring with knowing grins at each other. Although they were also sad they didn't get to spend more time with Clay.

Two other people entered the room and when I saw who it was I immediately went down in a bow. A soft hand was placed on my cheek rising my head enough to see the beautiful queen omorfiá. She smiled and raised a finger. "Now now dear I thought I told you not to bow".

I stood from my bow and grinned back. King Clay just smiled and ruffled my hair. Clay looked like his mother but had the warm personality of his father.

Clay reached up and pushed my hair to where it was originally. I grinned at him and he just softly smiled at me. Sap and george rushed in to give Clay a hug, pushing me out. I huffed my annoyance and Clay pulled me back into the group hug.

(I didn't know it at the time but it was probably the last time we were all happy at once)

But all good things must come to a end eventually and the bells rang signifying it was eight o'clock. Tears were shed and clothes were soaked but it all lead to me racing the carriage that Clay was in. Inside I could see him pressed up against the window laughing. I tripped and fell down, not hurting myself but taking me such a long time to get myself together that I wouldn't be able to catch up.

So I just waved and smiled. His hand was stuck out the window and waving back at me. I laughed at how dumb it looked. I turned around and walked back in the rain. The queen was certainly concerned that I would catch a cold when I got back. I just smiled and told even if I did I was glad I had that laugh with Clay. She seemed to melt at my words, running her fingers through my hair and telling me how good of a friend I was.

My face flustered at all the compliments and I just laughed.

One and a half months later king Clay was assassinated. My Clay arrived at the castle not long after confused and slightly concerned. When he was told the news he completely shut down. Not a single emotion could be read on his face and I knew what meant. It meant that he was keeping down his emotions in favor of saving face in front of the nobles.

Later that night I couldn't sleep, I was wondering if Clay was okay when I heard a soft knock at me door. If I wasn't already awake I wouldn't of heard it. I got up and opened the door to reveal Clay with a pillow and blanket tucked under his arm.

The moment he looked at me the tears started flowing and I pulled him into my room so I could comfort him. He sat on my bed and sobbed while I ran my hands through his hair whispering to him that it would be alright, "it'll be okay" I murmured.

It wasn't until I laid him down and ran my fingers over his face that he started to calm down. Tired from crying so hard he fell asleep almost immediately while I stayed up to make sure he was okay.

I traced the freckles on his face noting how they were kind of like stars. He was destroyed by his father death. I would never be able to understand that pain no matter how much I wanted too.

My parents left after tubbo turned one. They just ran away leaving me with a literal infant and a lot of money. I pushed away the boys during that time, instead spending all my time raising tubbo. It took the queen dragging me and tubbo to the castle to finally reconnect with them.

The queen sent multiple angry letters to my parents telling them they were assholes for leaving me with a baby to fend for myself. They sent letters back apologetic and guilty. They never returned home though. They had another family in the place they moved. Two daughters and twin boys.

I never met these kids and if I was asked how many siblings I had I would say one.

Tubbo was and forever will be my pride and joy. I raised him to be the amazing kid he is and for how old I was I think I did a pretty damn good job.

Tubbo had trouble making friends. He was very antisocial until you got to know him. He wouldn't open up until you made it clear you wanted to be his friend. So when he came home excited and telling me all about the new friend he made I obviously was very happy for him.

He went on and on about a boy named Tommy. From what tubbo told me he was a loud blonde boy who was a year younger then him but he was in the same year as him because he tested out of the grade below them. He liked the color red and adored cows. He told funny jokes and always smiled when tubbo laughed at them. Tommy read books to tubbo when he was having a hard time and tubbo explained math and science to him when he couldn't understand.

I started brushing through his hair as he kept on babbling about how cool he was and how much of a menace he could be.

The next day he asked me if he could come over. I said of course he could come. And I met tommy.

Oh boy that was a mess but that's a story for a different time. Right now was about Clay and Clay alone.

I woke up that next morning with Clay still wrapped around me. I got up and went to the kitchen to get him some food and water.

I was there when he woke up with a smile and breakfast for him. I was there during the funeral my arm around his, holding him close so he wouldn't break. I was there in the late nights where Clay could do nothing but cry. I was there while the queen became distant and tired. I was there helping him with Evangeline when he had to take care of her because the queen couldn't. I was there as he had to step into his role as crowned prince more. I watched as he worked more and watched some more as he stopped talking to me preferring to talk to sapnap or george as I "could not help him with things anymore" (he didn't even say this to my face I overheard it when he was talking to his little play thing ava).

I was there when ava left saying she had to see the world and he was holding her back. I was there as he went through multiple girls always flirting with them in front of me making george and sap look at me with pity (I hate pity its a useless emotion either feel sympathy or feel nothing at all).

I was there when he noticed how close I was getting with Wilbur. I was there when he banished him from the country he was born just because he made my life worth living. And when I wasn't there, when I finally left that's when he saw me as the help I was. When I had moved on at last, that was when he "needed" me.

And I hate him for it.

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Okay so that is this chapter. Also thank you guys so much on all the love <3.

Next chapter I was thinking of doing a different p.o.v so let me know who you want :]

So you soon lovelys BYEEE