The Real Me (BXB)

Chapter Two

Trigger warning mention of abuse and slurs

Hayden

You know how people always say that lunch break is the best part about school, well that is if you have someone you could spend it with and not sit alone at a table eating your sandwich, although it was a damn good sandwich.

I never really had a problem being alone with my food, but sometimes I wish that there was someone who would talk to me while we ate, like the people at the table beside me.

Or copy the homework from someone, because I was too lazy to do it like the guys two tables ahead.

Or even flirt with me and kiss me, like that annoying couple before me.

Just not that disgusting, like dude no need to fill her mouth with your tongue and feel her up the whole break, people try to eat here .

Or like over there sharing the food and stealing it from your friends .... yeah maybe being alone wasn't all that bad.

This school consist of a bunch of homophobes anyway.And one would think people would be evolving, well not everywhere unfortunately.I still remember that poor junior who got bullied that bad, he and his family moved out of town.Since then no one else tried coming out.

It's been almost a year since that whole forced coming out and nothing changed. My mom is still a bitch, and my dad is seldomly home and when he is, nothing but a hi comes my way .Well that's a bit of a lie something did change.

Me.

I stopped going out, stopped drinking and all that shit which didn't really made me that sad anyways. But I also stopped smiling.I never really talked with people at school, but now I pretend like they just don't exist.I just didn't care anymore.

I wouldn't let them copy my homework anymore and stopped doing group works. I just asked the teacher directly if I could do it alone, because it always ended in me doing the whole thing alone anyways.

The bell ringed and everyone got up to get to their class just like me . Thank god it was Wednesday and I didn't had P.E today.I was really not in the mood to run.

I was sitting there in class pretending not to hear these people and waiting for the lesson to be finally over. After school I packed my stuff and was ready to go , until a voice at the parking lot called my name.

,,Umm Hayden", I turned around seeing my deskmate .... Okay I didn't really knew her name, but she was my deskmate from chemistry class. I didn't bother saying anything back and waited until she spoke .

,, Well hi, I know we don't really talk with each other that much, but well umm, my friend Ella is throwing a party this Saturday and well, I was wondering if you maybe wanted , well you know you wanted to come and maybe even , well maybe even with me ?" I didn't say anything and just looked at her a bit confused.

Does she always say that word that much ?

,, Well what do you say , wanna come ?" There you go well girl. I wonder if people used her for a drinking game , they would be wasted in no time.Stop being mean Hayden.

,, I'm sorry, but I don't really like partys that much, I doubt I would be great company, you should ask someone else ", I answered her because honestly, the partys I always went to with Parker left me hating them and thinking back I'm pretty sure he cheated on me while we were there , because who would take half an hour, to an hour to get a drink. Man was I pathetic and dumb, as if I didn't know what really happened.

She looked a bit disappointed but didn't back down.
,,Well you know it could be great for you to  get to know some people or do you really enjoy being alone all the time like some loser?"