Without a Warning (A kian lawley fanfic)

Chapter 16~ Running

Roses POV

I felt Kian grab my wrist but I soon tried to pull away and he lost his grip.

"Bye Kian...forever" and by forever I mean never coming back to anyone.

when I said those words I started to cry. Not just because, I thought what we had would last forever but because now I know what we had was a lie. a stupid fucking lie. 'was this "relationship" we had a game to him?' I thought as I ran to the top of San Clemente (A.K.A. the top of the world). I got there and sat in the same spot where Kian and I had our first date. I sat on the ground and thought back on that day.

*Flashback*

We had walked here together hand in hand.

"This is so pretty," I say to Kian about the sunset.

"Not as pretty as you," he says then he kissed my cheek.

I blushed, he noticed because all he did was kiss my cheek more.

"Are you going to kiss me already, or no?"

It didn't take long before his lips touched mine.

*Flashback*

That day was amazing I picked up my phone and looked at my case, it was the one Kian had bought me that day. All the memories I had with him are good he made me feel safe, comforted, and most of all loved. He had said so many things to me that nobody had before like I'm beautiful, lovely, funny, sweet, and most of all one of the most loving girls he has ever met. What had happened to that Kian the one who I loved...the one who had loved me. I started to listen to music and the song Aftertaste by Shawn Mendes came on. I started to sing along.

Re-re-rewind friday night never forget it, how you let me go

No more lies, I'll be fine, know where I'm headed, probably should've known

And now you're gonna say pretty please forgive me

Fool me once, told you twice, gonna regret it. Now your all alone Yeahhh

Turns out that no one can replace me, I'm permanent you can't erase meee

I'll have you remember me and one more kiss is all it takes

I'll leave you with the memory and the aftertaste...

Once the song was done I started to fall asleep I put my jacket on the ground sprawled out and started laying down on it. It was a hot night and I started to drift to sleep.

Roses Dream:

I was in the house and Kian was there standing just looking at me and then finally he started to say something,

"Rose I hate you and I never even liked you anyways. Let alone loved you..."

"Kian I thought you would be here to apologize?"

"Apologize? For what? Finding someone better than you, because I would never apologize for that."

Soon so much anger had filled within me I walked up to Kian looked him straight in the eye and slapped him the hardest I possibly could across the face. He seemed like I hadn't done anything to him. He made his hand into a fist punched my straight in the stomach. Of course this hurt me like no other and I fell to the ground screaming and crying in pain.

"Now that you don't have me to comfort you, you have no one to." Once he said this he vanished.

I woke screaming. I looked around for Kian he was nowhere to be found I guess it was a dream. Phew! Though that dream made me think, what Kian had said in it was partially true. I mean without him sure there is no romantic aspect in my life but, I mean, I still have my brother. But as of right now as I'm running away from everything, so I have nothing.

I started to walk to the stairs that lead to a beach called 2o4s and walked down the stairs to the beach. I sat down on the soft sand and watched the waves crash on the shore. I wish right now Kian was here to watch the waves with me and hold my hand, but at the same time I don't want him here because of all the shit he put me through right now I'm just torn between loving him and wanting to kill him. I started to think about Kian and what he is probably doing. "he's probably talking to people about how much he hates you."no no no no! not again! "WHY ARE YOU HERE?!" I yell. "I THOUGHT YOU YOU LEFT?!" I yell again at what I would like to call 'the voices'. "oh honey we NEVER left."

why, why me? why does depression exist? why does it have to happen to me? I mean it makes sense, considering I'm a selfish bitch. I mean I guess I deserve it....

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Hey guys its Kirra I wrote the beginning to this chapter and Sami wrote the end. I hope you guys are enjoying the story😊 it's getting really intense. What do u think Kian is doing? Ok well byeeee😘 love you guys!!