Gay Crazy Kid

Eggplant

July 25th was the 1st week of the funeral of my late grandfather. Everyone seem so busy cooking, playing gamble, crying, and trying their best to do everything must to finish after this week- sending him on his last place...

Literally I'm not close into him so, I just didn't bother to participate to help the family often. Sometimes I'm just inside the house all day, caging my self away from social interaction.

It's not a new thing for me, I've been 17 years existing and thats all I usually do.

Actually this past few weeks I felt that I'm interested about sex- yes you heard it right- S-E-X, sexual thing.

Now that I'm usually alone this week, I had the chance to explore my self.

I usually do, masturbating. Like when I was 10. I think it's a normal thing to do as a young boy, though I agree sometimes I felt the guilt after doing so- I'd tried to restrain my self, doing it less.

One night, when everyone fell asleep. I suddenly awakened- I don't even know why but there's a urge of me to do a nasty thing again, To MASTURBATE!?

I don't fucking no but my body move it self like an in-heat cat touching, feeling, every delicate touch I manifest. The atmosphere begun to change into horny humidity. I swiftly got my phone and access it to my private safe, where all 18+ videos are safely kept. I also reach my lube bottle over my desk.

Everything is moving as if planned. I gradually add lube to my semi- erected 5-inch penis and slowly conducting in and out phase while holding it in my wet and slippery palm.

At that moment as I caught a gaze to my phone, I'd saw a bulky jock and his big-veiny foot-long dick.

I don't know what happened but it triggers my individuality, I got full erection and my veins reveal it self. Pre-cum mixed into my used okra-like lube that add ups the sexual entertaining sensations.

From that moment, the jock that I'm watching vividly omitted moans. "Augh-- Ahgh- aUghh-- Uagh" It scream in pleasure, from low to high like mimicry it pushes my holding-edging release of cum to be executed right away. I fastly searched for my towel to clean my self, I stopped the video still playing half way through the full content of it.

After that somehow, I felt the guiltiness though I must accept the fact that the pleasure and sexual contentment exceeds.

I'm gonna be honest It's still not enough to please my curiosity and self sexual need. I had the thought if somehow I can insert something inside my anus, something average bigger than mine.

Thinking of it- I remember when the first time I'd fingered my butt and left no answer my unquestioned dilemma of where my G-spot is, if it is actually true that it's pleasurable and debunking the truth of it though I just merely imagined doing it when I still doubt and feared doing so...

I'm aware that Identified my self as a gay, though 2 years ago- I doubt and distinguish me as a bisexual. As the time passed by I definitely accept the conclusion that I'm definitely dominantly attracted to male rather than female at all.

5 pm of the other day wild thoughts hunts me in, While I'm all alone inside the house the urge of in-heat cat switched unexpectedly. I had the feeling of inserting something long and quite big inside my anus.

That leads me into the decision searching for a dildo, but I can't either purchase or wait for its delivery.

I happen to thought of the eggplants planted by my grandmother and now bearing ready to harvest long-thick, purple colored, nutritious in our backyard- moments after I saw it, I felt disappointed. why? you'll ask..