I never felt like i caught the attention of those around me
but when we stayed up talking till 4am the first time we called i knew i was wrong
you told me about all the times you noticed me from afar, and how it made you feel
in an attempt to let the butterflies in my stomach i laughed and giggled hoping that you wouldn't notice
an attention that i never had, that i always lacked, that i always wanted
an attention that seemed out of reach, that seemed unrealistic and a fraud
an attention that you gave me that made me feel so seen and loved.
an attention that i wish i kept.
