𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐌𝐄 ( 𝐂𝐇𝐑𝐈𝐒 𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐎𝐋𝐎 )

𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐘

- BRIELLE

"so what's gonna happen with you and ross tonight?" alex asked me as she tied the laces on her shoes. we were getting ready to go to ross' party and truth be told, i was excited.

i shrugged. "probably nothing. we're just two friends catching up." i told the girls about my history with ross to try to convince them that he didn't like me like that. that just fueled their idea more. something about him liking me our whole childhood? whatever. i was tired of people making assumptions about that stuff.

"i had no idea today was his birthday too until i saw his bitmoji on snap. was i supposed to get him something?" madi asked from her spot on my bed. delilah and i looked at each other for a moment. we both knew how much ross hated recieving birthday gifts. he was weird like that.

delilah shook her head. "nope. if he wanted gifts he would've clarified it was a birthday party." i nodded in agreement and alahna hummed.

"this year he might want the gift of your presence," alahna joked with a sly smile, making everyone in the room laugh. i shook my head and laughed with them.

"you guys are the most dramatic people ever." i walked over to my bed and flopped next to madi with my head in her lap.

"not our fault you have the most interesting love life ever!" delilah exclaimed as she spun around on my spinny chair.

"exactly! you've been in so many love triangles it's crazy," madi added as she straighted my hair across her legs. i looked at alex when she said this and i saw her face change slightly. i started to feel bad.

"i'd list them all but i lost track." alahna jokingly frowned and i threw a pillow at her. "kidding!"

i looked at alex again and this time she caught my eye. she snapped out of whatever trance she was in and a smile reappeared on her face. i could tell it was fake.

"okay but let's talk about delilah and matt? what about them?" alex suddenly said. no one else realized that was she was trying to change the subject but me.

delilah blushed and hid her face in her hands. "nothing."

"oh come on lilah! we all see the way you guys act like you're the only two people in a room at any given moment!" alahna exclaimed from her spot on the floor. madi giggled and pointed at delilah.

"that is so true. we all saw the way you silently comforted him during morning wake-up a couple of days ago when his anxiety was going up," madi said as she gave delilah a look."you two have gotten pretty close since lacrosse opening night."

it was true. matt and delilah both have social aneixty so i was almost certain that was something they bonded over. matt related to delilah in a way that i couldn't and i could tell that was what drew them together. well maybe we didn't relate until recently i guess with my whole panic attack thing. alahna is still the only one who knows. i'm not ready for anyone else to know about that yet.

"oh come on guys. you all would've done the same." delilah's face was burning red. i felt bad the heat was all on her but i was kind of glad it was no longer on me. i was running out of answers to give him.

"yeah we would have but you did it so differently and you know it," alex responded as she pointed at delilah for emphasis. alahna and madi hummed in agreement and i had to join them.

"do you like him?" alahna questioned as she placed a hand on delilah's knee with an expecting look. delilah smiled sheepishly.

"..yes." everyone in the room, including me squealed. at least she was sure of her feelings. wish i could say the same. recently with everything going on, i've been able to distract myself from the question in the back of my mind. did i like chris?