beautiful goodbye (slow update)

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

unedited! multiple errors ahead!

Juno POV

Our date ended up in the sea side of MOA. Naupo muna kami ni Cali habang siya ay kumakain ng binili niyang ice cream. "Did you enjoy this day?" Tanong nito sakin. Sa totoo lang? Oo. Nag enjoy ako pero nahihiya akong sabihin 'yon kay Cali. I don't know why.

"What? Hindi ka ba masaya?" Sunod na tanong nito sakin. I shrugged. "Then what is it?" Paano ko ba 'to sasabihin sakanya? "Actually I'm- ahm.." I'm hesitating. Hindi naman kasi ako sanay sa ganito. "Nahihiya ako." I said honestly. I heard her laughed because of what I said.

"I just want to give back the same effort on what you did back there in Bicol. Because I saw how sad you are at the hallway. I can't take it, Juno." Malambot nitong sabi sa akin. I felt my heart race when she look at my eyes sincerely. Her green orbs bring comfort to me. 

"Thank you for this day." I said. 

I found myself kissing her on her forehead. I don't know why I did that maybe I'm just overwhelmed with the thought of Ma'am Cali is here with me. This can't be love right? Because- Because I don't know what it feels to love someone. I mean, hindi ko ito naramdaman sa mga past relationship ko. 

"I like you Juno." I wasn't able to dodge that. Haggang ngayon? Like seryoso ba siya? Hindi kasi magandang biro 'yon. Hindi ako makakibo sakanya. I remain starring at her face. "You don't need to reciprocate my feelings. Just let me treat you right." I felt her hands caressing my thighs. It is not sensual. 

Hindi ba dapat siya ang  pinapahalagahan. I mean sa aming dalawa, siya itong niloko noon. And kailan pa ba 'to? "Why me?" I asked, still curious on why she like me. "The moment I saw you in Nath's wedding. Your music calm me, you bring comfort to me. When I'm with you I feel like I can be vulnerable. Like I don't need to be strong for just a short period of time." butterflies inside my stomach was bewildered. 

I don't know what to say at the moment. I was too stunned to speak. I didn't know that I have an impact to other people around me. Like a simple music can change someone's perspective. "I have to be honest-" I look at her with full of sincerity. "I don't prioritized love Cali. But I am genuinely thankful that you like me. But I'm not sure, I don't want to give false hope; specially I don't know what should I feel towards you Cali. But there is one thing for sure." I paused first. "And that is I love your presence around me. You are a good company Ma'am." 

"Are you rejecting me? Ouch, kakaamin ko lang ang bilis naman, Aguirre." Natatawang sabi nito sakin. "No- I mean, gusto ko lang i-clear sayo agad Cali, because I don't want you to run after me, you don't deserve that. You deserve to be treated like a queen-" She cut me off. "Then treat me like one, Juno." I sighed. How I wish I could. But I don't think I'm fit to be with you ma'am.