Was it Worth it?

Prologue

'Was it...worth it? '

'Was it worth it for the fame?' No

'Was it worth it for the money?' No

'Was it worth it for them?' Yes

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As a Child my life has always been on camera. When I was 5 I debuted into a group called '4season'. I remember it clearly, I was beaming with happiness. I was so happy that I was able to perform on stage.

There was only 2 things I liked about being an idol back then, Our Fans and My Members.

I didn't hate the staffs or anything, I just didn't like how they treated us. They would ignore us when we needed them and wouldn't do their jobs. Our manager and CEO didn't do anything about that, they just let it happen.

Our group only lasted a year before disbanding. That day when we disbanded I cried to my mother on how I'll never train to be a idol again. But those words did not last long, two months later we moved to America and there I learned how to dance properly; I also learned English.

We stayed in America for a year, my 2nd sister was born the year we went to America. But sooner or later we have to move back to Korea, I was 7 at that time. When we got back I wanted to audition for SN but before I did my mother told me to spend at least 2-3 years living my childhood like she thought I didn't.

I tried to listen to her but I ended up auditioning for SN 3 month later. I was eagered to audition for SN, that company has been my dream company since I was 5.

To my surprise I actually got in, I was filled with joy. After ever month evaluation, I always got top but I felt like something was missing. Did I want to continue training or not?

I spent two years in SN until I eventually quit being a trainee, I was 9. After quitting on being a trainee in SN, I decided to audition for JPY and I got in.

Even though I did really good at everything, I felt like something was missing. I didn't know what though.

I ended my contract on being a JPY trainee a year later. I've been auditioning to be a trainee but then quitting about a year later just to audition for another. I don't know why I did that.

I was about 10 when I auditioned for Square(3D), spent a year and left.

I finally decided that I was going to take a break and focus on my childhood life. It was fun having to not worry if I'll make it or not back when I was a trainee. I caught up with some old friends from 1st grade and just did random 10 year old stuff.

But after spending a year on catching up on life, on my 12th birthday I saw that there was an audition event going on. The event was held by Solar Entertainment and I guess this is the part where we get more deep into my life.

Let go then!!