I Wish | Larry Stylinson Songfic

Chapter 01 - I Wish

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I stared tired at the ceiling. Today was the third night in a row Louis went to a club and to a woman or man afterwards. His personal record! Up to now he was not more than two nights in a row at a club. But three? Will be tomorrow the fourth night? Besides, it got more often that Louis was one or two nights at a club.

While he had fun, I lay in my bed trying to sleep. However, I was only plagued by sadness, disappointment, anger and jealousy, which prevented me from sleeping. Yes, I was jealous of the woman and man Louis spent the night with. I was just his friend he could cuddle with, when he had not a one-night stand. That hurt, but I had never dared to tell him that, because I was afraid of his reaction.

He takes your hand, I die a little,

I watch your eyes and I'm in riddles

Why can't you look at me like that?

To make matters worse, it had the reason that I was in love with Louis and I did not want him to find out. Even though I had a little hope that he would come before midnight. I got lovesickness when I remembered that this was not the case yet and I hated myself for hoping that Louis would come before the next morning. I felt a tear running down my face slowly. For every new thought about Louis another one was added.

I began to sob violently a few minutes later and could not hold back the tears. Then, the light in Liam's room was switched on and I heard somebody knocking on my door shortly after. I sometimes wonder, if it annoyed him, Niall and Zayn that I often cried at night.

"Yes," I said with a breaking voice and the door opened.

Liam came to my bed and sat down on the edge. He carefully stroke my arm.

"You should really talk to him", he meant to me.

Barely visible, I shook my head. What should I tell Louis? I'm in love with you, would you like to stay the night?

Liam seemed to think shortly. "Shall I talk to him?"

I looked at him in shocked. "No!"

"I wouldn't tell him you're in love with him."

"Okay," I answered quietly, although I could not imagine it helping. Louis would always be the player he is.

"Sleep now", Liam meant after me were silent for a few minutes and my tears became less.

"Good night and thank you for taking care of me."

"Always", Liam replied with a warm smile, "I just can't stand to see you suffering because of Louis."

After he left my room, I managed to fall asleep overtired.

When you walk by, I try to say it,

But then I freeze and never do it

My tongue gets tied, the words get trapped

The next morning, I was woken up by a door that fell loudly into the lock. I saw it was already nine o'clock when I looked at the clock. Had I slept that long? I got nervous immediately because Louis had just come. I hated myself for being a little bit happy about it.

I hear the beat of my heart getting louder whenever I'm near you