My Clumsy Secretary (Jinkook ff) 🔞

Season 2:Chapter 12

Continuation
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Jungkook

Another year without you.... It's been 2 years since you're gone....gone forever in my life. Funny to think that you're always leaving me alone, first is when you saw me killed someone and now this. I just wish you only just left because you hated me, at least I know that you're still alive. But no......this is the worst thing ever, that you left me for good. It hurts me so much, that until now I can't accept you're dead. Why.....why I didn't make it on time, why I didn't even get to save you from him. That Namjoon, I didn't even get to see him after that. He was really the most clever person I've ever known, and the most heartless too.

I wipe my tears and just stares at his remainings, those ashes felt nothing to me....but why. Maybe I'm just pretending not to accept the fact that he's gone, or I'm just over thinking.
" I guessed this is the right time to let you go now, I know it's hard....so hard....but I have to do it. I'm leaving Korea now, but don't worry.... I know Jimin will gonna take care of you. He will always be here to visit you, I just need.....I just need to find myself . You know that I love you so much, and it's hard for me......to say goodbye to you,eventhough you're the first who left me. Goodbye......", I hesitate to turn around from him, but what can I do. These feelings should get free from the pain I was having right now, it hurts for me to see him like that. No.... I can't even see him now, only his ashes.

Walking away from there, felt so heavy in my mind....but why my heart doesn't even hurting. I don't understand, is it because.....it was all damage already that it has no feelings anymore. As I came near my car, I  glance on the building where he lays. Sighing on my own, I opened the door and get in. After sitting on the driver's seat, I started the ignition and drove away from there.

After an hour......

"Kook......are you really sure on your decision, you know I  can't handle this  company on my own. Your father will definitely gonna look for you, especially your mother. How can I tell them that you escape from here, and find your own self on America. Please don't do this,"

"I don't care about my father, or is he even my father at all. And don't worry about my mom, I know she will understand me. Just.....let me do this Tae, I just need to get over him. And maybe.....I can find someone else there. That was all you wanted right, you want me to move on.....and so I'm doing it. (Sigh) I'm sorry for doing this to you, but I need.......I need to think for myself now."

"And what about the mafia world, even though Namjoon wasn't here anymore. There's still some mafia leaders that wants to get what's yours, what about that ". I thought for a moment, before replying.....

"You said before, that I should stop what I'm doing right. I'm stopping it now, and that's my final decision. You will announce it, you will spread the news.....about my resignation." Disbelief.....the only reaction on his face right now, what can I do.....I'm already done with my life now, but no..... I'm not gonna do any suicidal thoughts. I know Jin will never gonna like it, so never.....never I will do that.

"Fine, I will do what you want.....I know that your decision was all final now.....and I have nothing to do with it. But please keep in touch, I want to know what was happening to you there and what are you doing. I just want to know if you're safe"......

"I will be safe and just one thing, I will leave all of my wealth here. Maybe I'll just find a job there and stand on my own. I want to have a simple life, no expensive things, no plenty of money  just a few.....to start a new life. I want it that way,"