( okay so it's been a long time since I've wrote anything on here but I figured I really wanna finish this so why not now.)
Freshman year flew by like a breeze and in all honesty I felt like my life may have been getting back to normal. I had a few close friends but I knew I could trust them and I had started going to my youth group at my church. It gave me a escape and also some new friends. I really enjoyed going every week.
Once a year the youth group would go to a church camp for the weekend. I decided to go along even though I was very nervous and unsure. We loaded up and packed all of our stuff into our leaders cars and headed for a weekend away from the world. To a teenager a weekend without your phone and social media seemed terrible but in all honesty it was exactly what I needed. During the weekend we would have what we called "sessions". Which basically was little sermons where we would all sit together in the room and the speaker would talk for about a hour.
Every Saturday night at camp was what we called "serious night". Serious night was always the night where it got really deep and you knew you were gonna cry. Well this one serious night the speaker was talking to us and he told us all to close our eyes. He then said that if we ever felt unloved or unwanted to raise our hand. Me being the person I was peeked a bit to make sure I wasn't the only one before slowly raising my hand.
That night was the night that I accepted Jesus into my heart. The night that would start me on my long during in my faith and lead me to where I am today.
"God is within her she will not fall"

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Finding Me (testimony)
ContoWarning to anyone reading this. There will be mentioning of self harm depression and even suicide. Also there will religion and stuff being mentioned. Thank you to anyone reading this!