[Hidden Love] /Phillipa Soo& Sara Barreilles

Flashbacks

Sara's POV:

It's been three days, since I heard the last time from Hannah, three days since I was actually happy for the last time and I slowly started to loose the hope for our relationship. I really thought that our relationship worked out and that we could make the next move. She even suggested to make the move and that's why I'm so confused by her reaction. I didn't push her into anything she didn't want to do and I always tried to make it the most comfortable for her.

I already messed it up one time and that was with Pippa all those years ago. I remember, that I tried to force her to come out, even though she wasn't ready yet and I still hate myself for acting this stupid. She was so afraid of this thought and me, her girlfriend who should've supported her, just made everything worse by keep pushing her to do it. To this day, I still thought to myself that what would've happened, if I weren't such an idiot back then. Would Pippa and me still be together and maybe already engaged or married? I knew I made a big mistake back then and that's why I told myself that I won't do the same mistake with Hannah.

And here I was. Waiting for a message or phone call of Hannah, who wasn't sure, if we should break up. I knew that my castmates of into the woods definitely noticed a difference within me, because they treated me slightly differently. They talked with me only about light topics and never tried to make me uncomfortable. But the biggest change I noticed was mine and Pippa's blossoming friendship. She was the only one who knew what was truly going on in my life, so she asked me everyday if I already heard something of my girlfriend. Phillipa's really the most kind hearted person on earth and I regret it everyday that I let her go...

We were taking a short break of rehearsing and I immediately went to my phone to check any new messages. I didn't expect that there would be something new until I saw that there's an unopened message from Hannah in our chat. I started to shake a little bit, as I slowly moved my thumb to our chat, to open the message.

Hey Sara, sorry that I took
so long to figure things out,
I just needed to think about
a lot of stuff and now I've
figured them out. Can we
please meet up to talk?

I exhaled shakily air our of my lung, as I was leaning my head backwards and closed my eyes. What should I answer? I don't want to loose her and I don't know why she wants to talk to me. If I say that I'm gonna meet her, she could break up with me but if I'm gonna say I won't meet her, she could break up with me over a text message.

Hey Hannah, yes we
can meet up. How about
after my rehearsals today?

Alright, I'll be there in time.

I finally get to talk to her after three days of suffering of not knowing what's gonna happen. I would lie if I said that I wasn't afraid of what's going to happen but I was relieved that my emotional suffering got to an end. Or at least that's what I hoped.

Phillipa's POV

It's been three days since the bathroom moment Sara and me had and we grew closer everyday. I really started to feel like we were on the best way to become good friends. I made it to a ritual for us both, that I'd ask her everyday if she already heard something from her girlfriend. Of course I didn't ask to get to know, if Sara's single again, I continued to ask because I wanted to see Sara happy again. No matter how our relationship ended, I don't want to see her suffer in any kind. And I swear, if her girlfriend hurts her in any kind of way, I'm gonna find her girlfriend and punch herin the face. I was never supportive of violence but if someone did Sara wrong, I'd do anything, since she was my friend.