Breath(ongoing)

Chapter 3

William

It was a typical day at school, another class and another day. I thought that the day would pass just like the other days with nothing sudden happenings, but that is just my thoughts. 

I was not expecting something and mostly i am not expecting this...

Our last professor for our last subject this morning arrived late on our room, we as a normal Filipino students where as usual, noisy. And as i was minding my own world at my desk, drawing something at the back of my notebook the door suddenly open wide and our today's teacher enter. 

Everybody started to go back to their own seat's and was ready to listen to our professor when someone enter the door. Shocked was understatement of what i feel , because the girl i was just thinking day's ago was actually right in front of us. 

Memories again flashes back , and just like our first time seeing each other , I was once again got mesmerized by her eyes when at the exact moment she faces, us her orbs met mine.

The color of clear blue sky

Rin

I was bored again and again. Umuwi ako dito sa pilipinas , expecting to be free , but yet again i feel imprisoned. Natapos ko na ang lahat ng libro na ibinigay saakin ni doc, ni kuya at ni daddy lo, but the emptiness in me still remains. 

I feel like i need to do something, no, I want to do something else. I promised my self i will do the things i want to , because i don't want to regret. I want to feel complete. and whole. Hindi naman sa hindi ma ibigay ng aking magulang ang aking pangangailangan ngunit iba ang aking hinahangad. And in other way, they won't gave me the things i want, not because they won't but because they can't. That is fine, because i have accept this longer than i have ever know.

I wan't to go to school

Nang gabi ding iyon ay napag disisyonang kausapin s kuya. Hindi naging madali ang pagpilit ko sakanya. Because i was so persistent i finally got permission. And i was finally got enrolled to a public school. Grade 12 to be exact, but then at least i can experience going to school. 

I have never explained my situation clearly, haven't I?. I'm sick. Well everybody can be sick, but my situation is much different. My heart doesn't function well, my body is sensitive and i am fragile. To sum all up, i am a burden, in my family, in every one. 

Rin Ayesha Nixon, a girl with no freedom. That's what every one called me. In the hospital i often visit, in the village in london and sooner here. Hindi ko alam kung kelan ako huling naka ranas lumabas sa public places. Because i was always in my room, 3rd floor of the house , my own flat. 

Napilit ko silang umuwi ako dito sa pilipinas. Because I want this. I need this. 

Napahiga ako sa kama ko, habang nakatingin sa maputi kog kisame. The guy. The guy i saw the first time i arrived here. Hindi man kami nakapag usap, he was the first person na nakilala ko dito. I haven't saw him and his friends anymore after that day. Pinaayos kasi ang kwarto ko. 

Oxygenated room. Yeah. 

Last year, pinaulit ni kuya nixon ang result ng check up ko. I thought that i no longer have any hope to live anymore. Ngunit nagkamali lng pala sila ng result. I can't be cured, but medicine can help me survive for as long as it will take. And finally this year i have make them agreed to take me here to the Benguet. Hindi masyadong polluted and lugar kaya ok na daw. And as the help of medicine, hindi na kinakailangan ng oxygen . 

Arrhythmia can be cured but Arrhythmia with Lung Cancer.  

So much at risk. But i can live. Before i sleep that night i was given medicine and more. May nurse na kinuha si kuya habang wala pa si cane. He told me na susunod daw siya kapag hindi na siya busy. Mom and dad are both also busy pero susunod sila hanggat maaari. But if i was the one to decide , i was better alone with a nurse. I don't want to see their pity. 

Nakatulog ako ng mahimbing ng gabing iyon. I feel at home and comfortable, i woke up with th esmell of oxygen again. Before i go out of the room, i also clean my self. Hinatiran ako ng nurse ng makakain , with medicine. 

Again, medicine.

Hapon na ng makita ko si kuya, before he enter my room he wore lab gown. Galing ata siya sa labas. He kissed my forehead before sitting at the single sofa in front of my room. He smiled at me. 

"Good news, They decided to take you in, but i told them you can only enter school 3 times a week"

HIindi na ako naka alma pa kay kuya. Alam ko namang it's for my own safety. 

"Home school ka again 2 days a week" dugtong niya. I smiled and thanked him. He made an effort. 

"Thank you so much kuya" Tumayo ako at lalapit na sana sakaniya ng pinigilan niya ako.

"Be ready, You can start going to school right this instant, but we have to get you fully prepared."

Parang bigla akong nabuhayan sa narinig, dalidali naman akong tumyo at dumiretso sa banyo. Lumabas nanaman ako bago at dumiretso sa damitan. Puro dress, ang nandoon. Hindi na ako naka pili. Basta nalang ako kumuha ng damit at dumiretso na sa banyo. Tumatawa pa si kuya sa labas bago ito magpaalam dahil kailangan nya pa daw mag prepare.

Ilang oras pa bago kami tuluyang maka alis, kailangan pa kasama yung nurse. They even packed all the unnecessary and necessary things. Kaya before lunch na namin nakausap ang principal.

I was both nervous and excited. Because finally, i can finally be a normal student. Nag paalam na si kuya at babalikan nya daw ako mamayang lunch. My nurse also at the clinic. Ayaw ko kasing nakasunod ito saakin bitbit ang portable oxygen tank ko. 

Habang naglalakad kami ng professor ko papuntang room ay namamawis ang kamay ko , halo halong emosyo ang nararamdaman ko and i was afraid i might get a sudden attack here, my breathing was already irregular and i can feel my heartbeat slowly rising. 

My professor stopped and looked at me.

"Follow me and I'll introduce you in the rest of the class" She then smiled at me and enter the closest door we were into. 

Napahing amun ako ng malalim bago nakayukong sumunod. I was nervous , the inside of the room was noisy before we enter but it suddenly became quiet. Hindi mun ako nag angat ng tingin. I was trying to calmn myself down. I mentally prepared my self for this moment but my imagination an the real situation is both different. 

I can do this, just deep breath. I take a deep breath before i close and open my fist.

Calmn down heart.

I needto be Ok, kapag nalaman ng magulang ko na inatake ako dito ay paniguradong hindi na nil ako ipapasok sa eskwelahan. This has to be my first step to be free.

And then i faced the eyes that eying me, but the first eyes i eyed is somewhat familiar. Those brown golden eyes. I was stopped in my place, not moving an muscle , just staring at those eyes. And before i knew it. 

I was breathing normally, my heartbeat is beating loudly but not painfully. I was able to breathe fine. Those eyes, than guy. 

He was just staring at me with wide eyes. And i was just also struck at him. 

what just happend?