It's quite a chilly day today, the wind blowing hard, a bit cloudy but the sun still peaking out a bit like it's trying to signal that it was still there. I walked down the path that was aligned with breathtaking cherry blossom trees that were dancing with the rhythm of the wind.
I walked down to one of the trees and reached up and picked out one of the flowers. I gave it a little spin between my thumb and index finger and watched it in awe. The flower started to fall apart as I watched and I let it fall to the floor. I let out a soft sigh and rubbed my hands together to feel some warmth.
I started walking down the path once again not knowing how to feel, I just felt empty. I started to get lost in thought and stopped noticing where I was. As I continued to blindy walk down the path I felt someone take my hand. I quickly looked to my right and saw him, he gave me a soft smile and said "hey, you alright? You almost walked into the pole silly. Watch where you're going." He let out a little chuckle and held my hand firmly. I looked at him for a couple seconds in confusion then I let out a huge smile back at him and held his hand as tight as I could never wanting to let go. "I guess you're still looking after me" I said as I giggled. "Of course I am, your m'lady after all," he teased. I gave him a little nudge and we both laughed.
Ah...how it made me feel so warm, his laugh, his voice, his hands. I felt at home whenever he was around. He pulled my hand indicating he wanted us to sit on the open bench. We both sat down side by side holding hands and silently observing the cherry blossoms. All of a sudden I heard such a soft humming coming from him. I watched him as he continued to hum a tune that felt so warm and made me feel as if we were sitting on a cloud together and watching the beautiful sunset.
I felt a tear come down my face and reached out my hand to touch his face. He looks at me and gives me a gentle smile and places his hand on the left side of my chest where my heart was and said "I'm always there, don't forget okay?" he slowly started to fade away. I panicked and tried to grab him and keep him from going but before I knew it he was gone. He was never here...I felt something fall on my lap, it was a silver shiny necklace with a heart diamond. I held it out on my hand and painfully smiled at it, it was the first gift he gave to her. I kissed the heart of the necklace and then opened the lock to wrap it around my neck. I sat in silence once again, this time with no one holding my hand and now sitting alone. I chuckled, and remembered this was his favorite spot. He would always take me here and would always hum and sing me songs so happily.
I started humming his favorite tune as I recalled all the memories I had with him. "I know you wouldn't want me to be crying so I'll stay strong for you and keep smiling for you, If that makes you happy...I'll do it" I whispered to myself as my voice cracked forcing myself to keep the tears from spilling out of my paining heart. Thank you, for loving me.
