onwards Sirius X Reader

4.safe

Potter Manor
Christmas Day

It was 12 am, Euphemia had just finished healing all Sirius cuts and bruises on the floor of the Potter Living room when he suddenly awoke.

Screaming and gasping, scrabbling away from Mrs Potters hold. James and Remus leap back in shock and Cass held onto her Fathers arm.

"Sirius, love...Hey hey hey...Sirius" Euphemia was now saying as she hastily moved towards Sirius arms out in front trying to calm him down.

He finally stopped screaming a looked around at his new surroundings. He didn't remember getting here, where was he, who was that blurred figure, but as his vision slowly came back to him he realised where he was. The potters, and this figure wasn't his mother but James. He sunk back into the foot on the sofa he had backed him self into.
"James" he rasped his throat sore from shouting.

"yeah mate i'm here, Remus too, your safe mate"
James said coming closer to him placing a hand on his shoulder which made Sirius flinch but expect.

Mrs potter was now crouched in front of him, stroking the small boys hair in a loving motherly way whispering kind sweet, reassuring things.
For Sirius it was too much to take anymore and burst into tears, burying him head into Euphemia's chest, whilst clinging James hand.

Cass felt awkward like she was watching something she shouldn't. Sirius Black crying in front of her, she never thought that would be how her Christmas would have gone. But never the less she felt sorry for the battered boy, she had never felt a great deal towards him before, he was just one of James annoying friends, but tonight, tonight he was more in a way.

After about 10 minutes Mrs potter sent Cass to bed and asked the the other two boys to help her get Sirius into one of the guest bedrooms. So they heaved the still crying Sirius up and half carried him to the room opposite Cass's. She was watching through the crack in her door, as they slowly lowered him into the bed and Mrs potter hurried off to get pain potion and a sleeping draught.

James was sat on the bed next to Sirius now and remus stood just back.

"Hey mate" james whispered
"you don't need to explain now okay, just know your safe yeah, no one can get in the house"

"yeah mate" remus agreed
Sirius just nodded looking down at the bed not meeting there eyes

"look mums getting you a sleeping draught would you like us to stay" James questioned
Sirius again just shook his head not saying a word.

"you sure?"

"i'm fine James" he finally snapped back

James looked a little taken aback but kept a smile

"okay will leave you to rest, see you in the morning yeah"

"night pads" Remus said walking back to his room

Mrs potter returned potions in hand but Sirius asked if he could take them when he was ready, she nodded and then sensing he may want to be alone left reluctantly however.

5 minutes later Cass sunk out of her room and crept over to Sirius's she didn't really know why she just need to know he was okay.

"Sirius" she whispered as she entered

"mmh.. james go away i'm fine mate....oh it you" he replied turing from his spot on the window seat.

"yeah me, ...ummm ... i just wanted to check if you were okay" she said awkwardly
she hadn't really plan what she was actually going to do once she got to his room.

"Did James send you" raised an eyebrow

"James .... no no.. i umm came because i was worried"

"no offence Cass" he scoffed "but since when have you actually liked me"

"okay, Mr rude, i haven't ever not liked you, just not always liked having to spend time with you"

"lovely as ever" he said turning to take his potion.

"Sorry...oh umm should i leave..i just wanted to check on you really Sirius i was just trying to be nice, but you clearly not in the mood so i will let you rest" she hastily said as he had just got into bed after taking to sleeping draught.

"no no wait" he called "wait i'm sorry, i'm being a dick i know," he paused looking at her very intensely "Umm..can you stay..just till this takes effect"

"oh sure yeah of course" she said surprised sitting on the window seat near the bed.
She watched him for a second as he stared up at the ceiling.
"why did you tell James to go if you didn't want to be alone"

"it stupid"

"i was counting on it being..go on"

" i don't like how they where looking at me"

"looking at you"

"like in some invalid" he said looking down

"Sirius fucking hell they weren't, they just care, like properly care"

"yeah i guess"

"they just want you to be okay" she paused
"your not okay are you Sirius"

he shook his head
"You want the truth" he mumbled feeling the effect of the draught "i'm scared, i really fucking scared"
"i'm scared to sleep, i'm scared to wake up, i'm scared she going to come back, i'm scared from reg"

Cass had forgotten he got a brother

"i'm scared cass and i hate being scared"

"i know" she said moving towards the bed,
"May i" she gestured if she could sit on it

He moved over for her to sit by him

"But Sirius your safe now"

"Am I Though" he cut her off

She thought for a second, maybe he was right this time, It was good enough James and her mum saying he was but was he.

She finally turned looking at him

" i don't know, but we will fight for you to be Sirius, now sleep" she said touching his arm awkwardly
"For tonight your safe i can promise that"

And with that he shut his eyes and drifted off into a dreamless sleep as Cass gave him one finally look before exiting the Room.