dude im so sick of falling in love. i hate it bro i hate how much i try for something that is literally temporary. why do i put so much work into something the other person isn't willing to do. i just try my best. i just want to make him happy, and treat him better than anyone else. i want him to see that he's loved. i'll love him and show him that he deserves it. but i've never fucking gotten the love and effort i have gave.
it makes me sick. dude why am i so mean to people who've hurt me. why do i suck so much. im such a shitty fucking person and no wonder why nobody really cares about me. i just want him to treat me the way i wanna be. i k he loves me but i want to see that he really honestly cares about me.
i don't want him to ghost me. 🙁
im just sick of always putting in so much effort and i try so hard to not do anything and just be careless and not put any effort but it's just natural for me to care so much and i just love him dude. i want him to feel happy once in his life and even when i try to he's actually more unhappy. im just full of shit aren't i.
i wish i was never born bro what's the purpose of ME.
i just wanna stay silent and never talk again but i can't because i've tried so many times and it's never worked. im just an annoying piece of shit aren't i? why does nobody love me bro. why does nobody wanna put the effort i put into something.
i guess he doesn't even care about me that much considering that.
maybe he just loves me bc im pretty and i have nice traits.
i just want to fucking love him.
why am i like this?🙁
