Dear Rome,

Chapter 1

Jasper pov

I wish I could say that my life wasn't a sad piece of shit, but I can't.

Hi my name is Jasper Myers, I live in Seattle with my family

My brother Mike who is an absolute attention whore. He's actually a really great kid just one of those people that no one really understands. After all, he is always trying his best and aces because he's...well... him and because of his perfection, my parents can't seem to stick their noses out of his ass long enough to notice that I'm one of their children too.

My mom and dad are lawyers which if that isn't enough of a red flag I don't know what is. As if my expectations of myself weren't high enough just add the expectations of two Stanford graduates to the mix and you've officially HELL, otherwise known as... insert drum roll*... my shitty life.

And as I was saying my life is a shit hole if you ever saw one.

I mean don't get me wrong my family is healthy and my grades are amazing and plenty of people have it far worse than me and ya on paper my life is every child's dream but when you look behind the curtains I AM A WRECK!!!

I have great friends and all, Diana and Sophia who have been there since day one, I kind of grew up with them or at least Sophia.
Her mom, Cleo, who also happened to be my mom's closest friend, died when Sophia was only 10 and ever since Sophia has just kind of been part of the family, so it was only natural that she became one of my favoite people in this shit whole we call world. She almost makes it bearable....  almost.
And Diana we met later on in the 5th grade. Me and Sophia found her getting picked on by  a few kids after her very public and very involuntary outing became the talk of the entire middle school. We of course beat the kids' asses because they deserved it and since then, Diana just became part of the pact. They are the few people in life I genuinally love and I can depend on them for just about anything.

But then there are the other people... like let me introduce you to Jacob, he's your everyday basketball player, 6 foot, annoyingly hot body, dark hair, hazel eyes, straight teeth, DIMPLES, and Lakewoods very own Golden boy.

Shocker I know.

On the outside, he's any average HOT high schooler but when you know him like I do, you get to see the more vulnerable side of him. Ya, he says questionable things and does things that someone probably shouldn't do but deep down he means well and just needs to be known to understand.
Of course Diana and Sophia disagree but they just don't know him like I do.

You see Jacobs parents got divorced 5 years ago and hes having a really rough time with the seperation so he has a reason behind his... outbreaks...

And you may be wondering hey Jasper you know enough about him to be his girlfriend, well silly you, no I am not I am just a great friend... who is just randomly and normally in love with her 6-foot basketball player friend.

Have I come out about my crush? Yes and Jacob is just one of those chill guys who won't let something as dumb as a crush, bring down a friendship. It's only a crush... that I've had for 6 years and counting but heyyyy it ain't nothing I can't handle, right? I mean I could just get over him and move on like every normal teen.

Except that getting over him would mean that I would need to separate myself from the problem- the problem being Jacob- and I can't do that, he needs me and besides I think the added affection just adds to our relationship.

But anyway...

I guess I should talk about me now..

Jasper Myers

I know it's a weird name. I get bullied for it for almost half my life because it was "a boy's name" which, why the hell do things like names and colors have genders???

Of course that all stopped when me and Sophia fought Johnny a bitch ass kid who called me a boy and tried to pull off my shirt "to see if I was a real girl" in 2nd grade, we got a red mark that day and our parents had to come in which is was a bad idea considering my moms a Sagattarius and Sophias mom was a Scorpio and ended in them pulling a badass move of threatening to sue the school when she figured out why we fought him.

Let's just say Johnny was a goner...

Don't regret it one bit.

No kid ever made fun of my name since then.

I'm now in the 12th grade and this year is my last year at Lakewood high and I cannot wait to graduate. Don't get me wrong I will miss high school but also...

FUCK HIGH SCHOOL!!!!

ya know.

Aaaand ya that about sums up my life I think,  I don't know... was that good?

"I'm glad you have such good friends you know you can lean on" said the woman sitting in the chair in front of me, like the cliche therapist I'm sure she is

"ya they're great" I smile while playing with my hoddie strings

"I would like to get back on the subject of this Jacob boy and the insident with this Johnny boy-" she was inturrupted by a sudden alarm

"Oh well, till next time I guess. What a shame, I could feel the break through coming down on me" I stated in a joking manor

I find humor to be healing, especially after a whole 45 minutes of having to relive my past.

"I see humor is your defence mechanism"

Rude.

"oh nooooo what a shame our time is up" I remined her, rather in a hurry to leave this sufficating room

"I can extend this meeting if you want to continue our chat-"

"Oh no I think I'm good, great actually, ya I think it's a hard pass, thanks though" I say quickly running out the door

I really  could not ever leave fast enough

Ever since my 'breakdown' I had last year, my mom was officially scared and forced me into therapy thinking that a shrink would solve my problems, which I must admit, it makes the struggle a little more sustainable but truth is I don't think the entirety of my 'struggle' will ever be gone.

I'm glad she's trying though...I got in  my car after leaving the office and I was on my way home, today is the last day of my summer and I was going to celebrate this night the right way.

Binge watch the Twilight series with my besties.

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Chapter 1 guys I'm so excited to start this book
the blueprints have been in my notes for almost a year and I feel like rn I'm in a good enough mindset to begin so I hope you guys like it

How was it?

How do we feel about Jasper?

me personally I love her, shes a Sag, just like her mother

Was this chapter too short?

Till  next time...

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