Just a Youtube Girl

So there I was standing in front of the biggest crowd i had ever seen having a huge panic attack, all of my fans know i have anxiety and that i do sometimes get panic attacks but i think it scared them a bit having to watch me stood on stage crying uncontrolably. Security had to come on to try and get me off stage but i refused to go as i knew with Alfie by my side i could overcome this panic attack and carry on with my live Q and A.

I should probably explain. My name is Zoe Sugg and i sppose you could call me a "you tube celebrity". It still feels all a bit unreal to me. I only started you tube so that i could get away from my anxiety and look where it has brought me. But to be completely honest it scares me a bit how much of my life i post onlinf for anyone to see.

I still only class myself a a normal person living in a cosy house in Brighton with my boyfriend and my puppy but i have people that watch my videos from all over the world so i dont think i am very normal anymore. Most of my friends ar youtubers aswell and we all love doing what we do and it is so amazing that we can make a living from just doing what we love but sometimes it can get too much.

We all put a lot of pressure on ourselves to vlog everyday or reach a certain number of subscribers and i dont think any of my veiwers get it, we pour our lives out onto the internet and you have the chance to say whatever you want back and although 9 out of ten of the comments i read are absolutley lovely, the ones that stick in my head are the ones that hurt and that is why i need to tell you something. Something that ive never told anyone before....