N stands for not always cheerful

Part 1

[N's pov]

"You never keep your promises" 

"Idiot" 

"Traitor" 

"What are you"

"Monster" 

The list could go on really, the thoughts racing in my head and constantly replaying. It made me feel worthless, but maybe it was all true, I thought to myself.

I pulled my cover over my head and rolled over my side. I didn't have the motivation to do anything right now. I couldn't face anyone right now. I know it's pathetic, I know I'm pathetic.

While I was continuing to mope around and rot away in my bed I heard light tapping. 

"N, are you still sleeping? It's 2pm!" 

I heard Alex shout from  outside the room. I remained still and unresponsive. I didn't want her to see me in this state and think of me as any less then she already probably does. 

I suddenly felt the weight of my covers being lifted off and the bright light hitting my eye. I shifted my gaze up to a short woman with light brown hair. Alex.

She squinted her eyes at me and then lifted a brow, taking a seat on my bed. I felt her small finger on my cheek as she was poking me. 

"N what are you still doing in bed? You're usually up before everyone, this isn't like you". 

She sounded worried which made my heart jump a little. It was nice for someone to care. 

I managed to crack and small smile and sit up. 

"I'm sorry teddy, I was feeling more tired then usual and decided to sleep in" , I replied back. 

Yes I did lie to her, why? Because I don't want her caught up in one of my pity parties. I don't want her to worry too much on someone like me.

Alex put her hands on my face and smiled 

"Sorry if I woke you up then", she whispered to me. 

I leaned in to give her a peck on her forehead 

"it's all good, Like you said it's 2pm. The day has already started I should probably get up anyway". 

Alex bolted up fast and gave out a cheerful grin

"Great! So we can go shopping together!"

"Wait what?! When did I say anything abo-",  before I could say anything Alex caught me off

"Okay! It's settled then we're going shopping, meet me down in 30 minutes" she clapped her hands cheerfully and walked off.

I sighed and gave out to her request. Well it's more like a demand anyway. I picked out my clothes and went to the bathroom to freshen and wash up. 

~30 minutes pass~ 

I went down the elevator and into the main lobby where Alex was. I took a glance at her outfit for the day. She was wearing a tight short  pink dress with white boots to match her white purse. My eyes wandered off to her hips and chest. 'I noticed how well Alex is built,  I thought to myself' my eyes traced her pear shaped body

"Hey eyes up here" 

I heard Alex say. I must've been starring too long at her, whoops!

"You ready to go?", I rambled to her in bright red cheeks.