My personal emotions

I'm not sure but I still love her

I go with her to a birthday party. Only so I can spend time with her. But unfortunately I didn't. Instead she's go's and stays with her friends. So no time with her. I feel like she doesn't care any more. I wish I could let her see what I see but I can't. And I wouldn't wish that on anyone else in the world. Alissa jae connell I love you and my passion for you is unbearable but you just don't know. I wish you did. But the time I did get to spend with her it was perfect and I'm grateful for every second that I was with her. And now I feel bad because she read this and now I want to die but I can't I don't want to leave her. I can't stand what I've done to her the love of my life. I don't want her to feel that way. Only if I could take her pain away I would. Even when I'm sad she makes me smile and I will never find any one again good as her. I am eternally grateful.