Unexpected Vacation [CL16]

Chapter 12

I left the room and came to Delilah. Charles walked past us towards the garage set up for practice. I had to digest all this and pull myself together. I was getting lost in the feeling of being away from someone you love. I didn't want to lose him either, but I still couldn't feel like I was going to be fully with him. I couldn't help feeling like there would be a lot of problems, people would judge me, and worst of all, I wouldn't be able to keep up with his life. After the first trainings were completed, Charles came to us. The car looked very fast and well-balanced, and Charles had just finished first practice. Delilah cheerfully congratulated him. "You did a great job" I said. "Even though it was just the first practice, the car felt very good. Also, I feel very good." he said. Delilah raises her eyebrows and looks at me. "Are you two going to tell me what's going on?" she said curiously. Charles and I looked at each other and laughed. Actually, it wasn't exactly something, but now we both knew our feelings. Charles didn't seem to want to hide the situation, but I was not inclined to take a step before I made things clear. "Nothing" I said, and smiled. It was clear that Delilah didn't believe it, but it wasn't something she didn't know. Charles left to work with the team, so we went downstairs for a bite to eat. "Yes, I'm listening to you" Delilah said in an insistent tone. I sighed and looked at her. "There is nothing really. We just have things to solve. You know, it's like everything goes smoothly without the press finding out" I said. Delilah shook her head in disbelief. "You shouldn't be such a control freak. It's a relationship, Irene, you can't mold it to the people around you. If you love, you love and you take a step. These behaviors will only tire you both out. I'm sure Charles doesn't think as much as you do." she said. Delilah's words surprised me. So I was a control freak? I was just trying to make sure everything went smoothly and I wouldn't be a tabloid figure. I was trying so that people wouldn't say bad things about our relationship, that is, our potential relationship, and we wouldn't get bored. So this was control freak? "Delilah, I don't want people to say bad things. I just want to be at peace" I said. Delilah's face was serious. "No, it just makes things worse. You have to go with the flow, Irene. You have to do whatever your feelings say, but that's how you'll be happy" she said. I nodded and started to eat something. When I thought about my feelings, storms broke out inside me and fireworks exploded with excitement. The moment I saw him, I felt like the butterflies in my stomach were coming out of a cage. I wanted to run to hug his neck and stay like that for hours. It was as if the tiredness of all life would rest me while I was in his arms. I didn't want to live and consume them all at once. If I had control freak as Delilah said, it really seemed like it would tire us out even more. "What should I do?" I said in a worried tone. Delilah looked at me and smiled. "You have to live in the moment. You must do what you want to do. If you want to say that you love him, you must say it. If you want to hold his hand, you must. This will bind you together even more." she said. I smiled at her and nodded. It was time for the second practice. We went back to motorhome and started to follow the training session. Charles looked really comfortable in the car. After the training was complete, he had to stay in the garage and work with the team some more. Delilah and I went back to the hotel. Back at the hotel, I sat on the balcony for a while to filter out what Delilah had said. She was right. No matter what, I had to try not to lose the person I loved. I needed to control my emotions and logic in the right spot. The clock was well past. Thinking of Charles returning to the hotel, I left the room to go to his room. Since they were working with the team on the vehicle, I had not texted him so as not to disturb him. When I got to his room I knocked on the door thinking he was there. After a while, he opened the door. "Irene.. I was going to write to you too. Sorry it took a while" he said with a smile. "It doesn't matter" I said. I was still waiting at the door. His eyes looked so beautiful that I couldn't help but stare at him. "Come in" he said. I nodded and went inside. It looked a little messy. Team clothes, personal belongings were everywhere. "You're messy" I said with a smile. He shrugged yes and smiled. "Would you like a drink, I can order" he said. A tequila shot would be fine right now, but it wasn't the right time. "There might be something cold" I said. Charles called reception and said something for us. I felt a little tense. We both didn't seem to know how to act. I was wandering around the room, only he was watching me. I couldn't take it anymore and walked towards him. "Charles.." I said and suddenly kissed him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he was holding my waist. The warmth of his lips seemed to permeate my entire body. I didn't want to open my eyes, it felt like a dream. He rested his forehead on mine as our lips parted. "Irene..." he gasped. I hugged him before he could say anything. He hugged me tightly. "You don't have to say anything, Charles" I simply said. I thought I was making it clear what I felt and what I wanted to happen. Just being with me felt like enough for me. After a while, there was a knock on the door of the room. Charles took what he wanted from room service and came to me. "Actually, I was thinking of something more romantic for the first kiss" he said with a laugh. "I thought it was very romantic" I said, raising my eyebrows. He came over and kissed me again. I don't know how many times I wanted to relive this moment. "You shouldn't stop us from living it by thinking about what people will say. Let them go. It's just us" he said in a serious tone. I nodded my head. But I still didn't feel ready for some things. The clock was well past again. He had to get up early and get ready for qualifying tomorrow. I hugged him again and repeated what he had said, "There's only us" I said in a vague tone. I kissed his cheek and left the room. When I got to the room, Delilah was asleep. So I changed my clothes and went to bed before falling asleep, all I thought about when I woke up in the morning was that it wasn't a dream.