Love, Not War (Book 2)

Chapter 64

Felix stared at the vase he had knocked down, face deathly pale, as if he had seen a ghost. He couldn't believe what he just heard. So Chan knew that 'Felix' was alive. He knew all along and yet, he continued to be with him.

He felt as if countless needles were poking his heart. Tears gathered in his eyes and not wanting to be seen by Chan, he quickly turned to run away when the door swung open and Chan stepped out.

Alarmed, Felix started to run but it didn't take Chan much effort to catch up to him. He easily grabbed Felix's arm, turned him around and embraced him tightly.

"It's not what you think Felix" Chan said, wanting to smoothen things out before Felix's brain went into the over thinking mode. "I can explain everything. Just please, stay and listen. I promise I'll clear things out okay"

"Bastard" Felix spat, struggling to get out of Chan's arms. "I'm not stupid like your ex okay. I don't want to listen to anything. Let me go!"

"Felix please" Chan pleaded. "Just hear me out. I promise I'll let you go after"

His heart was pounding painfully within his ribcage. The feeling of dread spread all over skin, like goosebumps. His stomach tightened in knots and fear overtook his senses as he begged Felix endlessly. "I'll explain everything. It's not what you think. You're the one in my heart. You're the one that I love. You're the one I was talking about. I love you Felix. I love you so much"

Chan's words didn't soften Felix's heart at all. He felt that if Chan could speak to his ex like that, then the day he too will hear such harsh words wasn't far and he sure as hell won't beg like a person without an ounce of dignity.

"I said you should let me go!" Felix shouted, gaining the attention of some people that stayed behind after working hours. Well, ever since they saw their boss running after a guy, their attention was caught but they didn't dare to blatantly watch but now that Felix yelled like that, they couldn't help but stare with wide eyes.

So their boss was like this...

"Let me go!" Felix yelled again. "You're crazy! I don't want to listen to a single word from you. I've heard everything I need to hear and if you think for one second that I will stay here and be his replacement for you then you're completely sick in the head!" He struggled violently, accidentally kicking Chan in the shin with caused him so much pain his arms loosened slightly. That split second was enough for Felix. He broke out of Chan's hold and ran away.

To catch him again was a trivial thing for Chan. Yet, he didn't go after Felix. Instead, he stood there, body trembling as he thought, even if caught Felix, what explanation would he give? The truth?

The truth was far too dangerous for Felix to know. Changbin had warned him many times that Felix may not be able to take it. Felix may break down, rendering all these healing useless. He may even try to take his life again.

The thought alone made Chan feel like he had lost all his strength. His body sagged but before it could make contact with the floor, someone quickly caught him and helped him up.

"Let's go back okay" Mingi said, throwing Chan's arm around his shoulder and supporting him with an arm around his waist. "Give him time. Show him how much you love him. He'll come to understand soon enough"

Chan chuckled dryly. His head hung low as they made it back to his office. "This whole situation is funny Mingi" he said. "Felix is angry with me for loving him. He doesn't know the one I was referring to was really him. He thinks I love another person called Felix"

Mingi couldn't help but laugh silently. "How will you explain it to him?" He pushed open the door to Chan's office, helped him into the inner room and sat him on a couch then went back and locked the door.

"I don't know" Chan replied. "Like you said, I'll just have to show him how much I love him"

"What if he decides to leave?" Mingi asked. He was afraid Chan would not be able to accept it. "What if he wants nothing to do with you anymore? What will you do Chan?"

Chan didn't reply for he didn't want anyone to know of his inner dangerous thoughts.

Truly, if Felix tries to leave, he wouldn't be able to let him go. He'd rather tie him up and lock him in a room where no one would find him. He'd rather Felix hates him forever than never see him again.

These thoughts kept churning in his mind and he laid on the couch and closed his eyes.

Felix definitely can't leave him.

Meanwhile, Felix had already flagged a taxi, ready to leave when someone pushed him away. He stumbled but quickly found his footing and turned to find Taehyun standing there, glaring at him like he was the worst thing to ever exist.

"What the fuck do you want?" Felix asked angrily. He was in no mood to listen to nonsense from Taehyun.

Taehyun stared at Felix for a while, not saying anything then he took out his phone and opened a picture of Lee Felix. He then shoved the phone in Felix's face. "Look at him" he said. "Look at the person that is keeping Chris from us"

The way Taehyun held the phone was unsteady so Felix had to collect the phone from him and what he saw made his blood run cold. His heart dropped to his stomach and he staggered back, feeling as if an arrow was shot into his heart.

It was a picture of him. The him from his memories.

He had platinum blonde hair and was wearing a mischievous grin.

He couldn't believe it.

"That's the Felix that won't let us have Chris" Taehyun said then snatched his phone back. His eyes were puffy due to his excessive crying and his voice came out hoarse, choked. "It's been five years now and that Felix is dead but the hold he has on Chan's heart is too strong. You know, I used to think that I was unlucky but after I saw you, after seeing what he did to you, I think I'm better off without him"

"W-What are you saying?" Felix asked, confused. Why would Taehyun have that picture? Why was the person in the picture the same as him in his past? In his memories? Why was he saying all those weird stuff? How could he have been dead for five years? He was just in a coma. A coma!

"You still don't realise it?" Taehyun sneered. "You look exactly like that Felix he loves. How much did he pay you to go through the surgery huh? What did he promise you? Marriage?"

Felix didn't even understand what was going on.

"Let me tell you. Better leave Chris while you can. He's going to ruin you. I mean, look at me. I love him with all my heart and yet he dumped me the second he got you. He must have been planning this all along. Make someone look like his Felix so that he can be with him forever. Well I'm damn glad that he didn't pick me because I will never go through any surgery just to look like some dead slut"

Taehyun walked closer and brushed back Felix's bangs so he could see his face clearly. "I wonder why he hasn't made you dye your hair yet" He put down his hand and sighed. "It doesn't matter now though. Just leave him before he completely ruins you. That man is psycho"

With that, Taehyun walked away, leaving Felix with a bucket load of information to digest.

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