Maybe Once and Never Again

Chapter 2.

Author note:"Stand by Me" by Ben E. King is the vibe and feeling of this chapter :)

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When Taehyung was 15 he met his best friend Jungkook on the second day of school, which just so happened to be one Taehyung was new to this year. He wasn't expecting to be really friends with anyone since he was joining Sophomore year and most everyone had their own friends at this point. Their own groups and clicks. He kind of kept to himself anyways— but when he met Jungkook, his whole view changed.

The latter, cute and with a unique style caught his eye instantly. And before the older knew it, Jungkook was asking if Taehyung would like to have lunch with him. It was an instant yes from the older of the two.

Ever since that day, they became inseparable. Taehyung got his drivers license that year and it was so easy to always be with Jungkook. Despite them both having strict parents, they found a way. Plus it wasn't a surprise that their religious parents became friends and it was favored for the two boys to always be together.

It was friendship— the purest and most amazing form of friendship Taehyung and the smaller could never ask for. Somehow Jungkook talked Taehyung into going to the gym with him in the mornings; though Taehyung spent most of the time sitting on or hanging on Jungkook as he did his reps of whatever sort of workout he'd do that day. Jungkook liked to call him his perfect, personal weight. Taehyung liked that a lot.

Jungkook was weird about working out but Taehyung didn't mind, he supported him going to the gym often because it helped the younger clear his mind and feel better about himself, so Taehyung was always happy to encourage it and go with him often.

Them spending so much time together didn't raise any suspicion weirdly, everyone just called it bromance and didn't question it. They, the boys, even passed it off as that. Taehyung's unspoken desire to follow Jungkook into the shower after his workouts and the way he felt weird feelings pool inside of him when Jungkook would lift him and throw him around like he weighed nothing— it was all just bromance. And Jungkooks unspoken love for the way Taehyung looks and the way he liked to put on makeup sometimes— not too much just some mascara and lipgloss that made his lips all silky and pretty— and the way he thought about how it would be to kiss him, it was all just bromance.

How were they supposed to know it wasn't just that, that it wasn't just closeness between boys? That it was something more? They hadn't ever experienced that attraction before, so they didn't know it was "wrong" in the sense of their parents and basically everyone in South Korea's thoughts.

However, it was pretty clear when Taehyung had a dream about Jungkook where he kissed him and it felt like the most amazing thing in his life. When that kiss was set in a wedding for them, and that kiss turned into sex. Steamy, passionate and mind altering sex. Something Taehyung knew was wrong but felt so good.

Waking up from that dream consisted of hearing his phone going off, feeling himself cum, first inside Jungkook but then, opening his eyes and realizing he had released into his boxers. His phone continues to buzz on his nightstand, making the already disappointing  and disorienting atmosphere 10x worse. A series of curse words flooded from his mouth as he sits up and grabs his phone. It's Jungkook. Shit.

Taehyung answers the phone call as the air makes his cum cold and his sensitive cock feel uncomfortable. Jungkook greets him with a cheery: "Good morning Tae." The older's name is drawn out in a peppy tone and Taehyung smiles softly. It reminds him of Jungkook moaning his name in the dream— fuck.

"G'Morning, Kook." Taehyung responds and puts the phone on speaker as he gets up and takes off his underwear, putting them in his laundry bin in a shaky frenzy.

"You sound weird, what's going on?" Jungkook asks, knowing Taehyung way too well to not know exactly when something's off.

"I- um nothing i just woke up, it's late. 'Need to get ready, is all." Replies the older as he slides on clean underwear, his phone sitting on his night stand a few feet from him.

"It's okay 8am." Jungkook laughs through the phone and Taehyung looks at the clock for the first time. Saturday the 16th, 8:11 am. Oh.

"Oh hah," Taehyung laughs nervously, "I read the clock wrong." He white lies, taking off his shirt.

"Weirdo," Jungkook giggles and then says, "Turn your camera on, i want your opinion on my outfit." Taehyung sighs, loving that Jungkook doesn't pry. He does turn in his camera and puts his phone up so Jungkook can see him as he grabs a shirt from his closet and he can see Jungkook. "What do you think?" Asks the younger.

Taehyung looks at the camera, holding his shirt as he study's the outfit. It's adorable. A sweater that's unmistakably Taehyung's with a bear patch on it and loose black cargo pants that make Jungkook look somewhat smaller. That all paired with some jewelry and tan converse.

"Is that my shirt?" Taehyung asks, already knowing the answer.

Jungkook smiles, "Yeah~, i mean, you gave it to me that one time because it was cold at the drive in movie, remember? So i thought i'd wear it today. Do you want it back?" The younger asks, eyes portraying that he most definitely does not want to give it back.

Taehyung chuckles softly, "No, yeah, no it's fine. I remember." He gets out, brain malfunctioning from the reality of Jungkook doing something so domestic. It's not like he hasn't worn his things before but, not just because. It's always been because of the cold or comfortability. Not just because he wants to wear something if his.

Taehyung really likes it on Jungkook.

"Keep it, it looks really cute on you." Taehyung tells with a smile and puts on his shirt, missing how Jungkook bites his lip at Taehyung's fully exposed torso before it's covered again.

"Okay, thank you Tae." The younger smiles widely, bunny toothed and all.

It was things like this that made Taehyung start to realize that his liking towards his best friend wasn't just bromance. It couldn't be.

So.. through more things, small and big, like this over a almost two year period, Taehyung got closer and closer to just going for his feelings, giving into his thoughts and when they'd start to lean in with sexual tension in the air, he wouldn't pull back. It would be Jungkook one or two times, before finally.. as they both half lay on the bed and they look into each other's eyes, faces close and getting closer, Jungkook doesn't pull away, Taehyung doesn't pull away, and their lips finally meet. They lock and both hold their breath, neither knowing how to keep going. Instincts kick in though and Taehyung moves his lips slightly, kissing Jungkook's lips deeper. The latter does the same and for what feels like an eternity in the best way, Jungkook pulls back:

"I don't think this is a good idea."

To Be Continued...