Butterflies Chapter One

Chapter one

"God sake Sophie" im say out loud sat here in my own thoughts ... Oh my god Maddie ... I'm the world's worst person! ... I need to stop and take a breath ...

Let me start from the beginning ....

It had started as the most normal day! My Dad had got up, got ready and taken Jack to nursery. That bitch Jenny was hanging around but I'm avoiding her at the moment because I do not trust her as far as I can throw her, then again can I really talk about trust now? Arghhh I'm hating myself so much .... Ok don't lose track. So anyway after avoiding Jenny in that shoebox of a house I skipped breakfast, made my excuses and left.

I had barely stepped out of the door when my phone was ringing and it was Maddie. I knew she would be pissed at me again. She's had enough of my "Jenny drama" and thinks I am blowing it all out of proportion ... Which for the record, I'm not!

I could tell as soon as I answered she was annoyed, asking me why I hadn't stayed for breakfast as she wouldn't see me until tomorrow as she had another meeting about her brother. Another pointless meeting that would end one way, with her hurt and crying but who am I to stop her. If fighting is what she wants to do then I'm behind her one million percent. Well I was .. she probably won't speak to me again after this.

Must stick to the story Sophie!! My head is spinning, my stomach is churning. I could throw up!

Anyway! I had a brief conversation with Maddie, wished her luck, told her I love her (which by the way I do I am just very confused right now) and said I'd see her when she got home tomorrow if she didn't have any time to talk later on. Which by the way is absolutely fine, I know this is emotionally a lot for her to take and she isn't exactly one for sharing her feelings willingly.

So silently crossing everything for her, trying my best not to think up my next plan to become Weatherfields best detective to catch Jenny out at whatever she is up to I set off for work. I wish I had a small clue but I don't so for now at least I've just resigned myself to the fact it would be another day in the shop hoping Norris wouldn't have much to complain about today because I don't think I could have taken anymore negativity the way I was feeling.

Shockingly the rest of the day went by pretty smoothly. It was quite a busy day at Devs with stock taking which definitely worked in my favour keeping my mind occupied and before I knew it, it was closing up time. As I locked the shop I didn't want to go home as Dad and that vindictive bitch would be there playing happily families with my little brother so I decided to go into town and shop. Yes I thought I was a genius. Retail therapy is the cure for everything right? What harm could shopping do? Ohhhh if only I had known!

I wasn't even sure what I was shopping for so I just wandered around looking at all the different clothes. To be honest my head wasn't in it I was thinking about Maddie, wondering how she was, wishing I'd stayed home this morning and said a proper goodbye. She is probably right about Jenny, I do need to let it go and let my Dad figure it out for himself, but he's my Dad ... Then there's Jack!

I wandered aimlessly around for about twenty minutes, totally caught up in my thoughts. Suddenly I found myself at the fitting rooms. The sales assistant asked me how many items and honestly she must have thought I was drunk because I didn't even remember picking anything up. Looking down at my hands I saw a t-shirt and a pair of jeans. Well at least I'd had the sense to collect myself a full outfit.

I wandered down the corridor of cubicles completely uninterested in trying on these clothes my subconscious seemed to have picked out. Still talking away to myself in my head yet again I wasn't paying attention (I really must work on that) and as I turned the corner I bumped into someone nearly dropping the clothes. Then I looked up and it was like lightening had hit me. I swear my heart stopped for at least several beats. I couldn't breathe ....