Cameron x Nash Short Stories - cash -

Can't Make You Love Me Part Four

Being in the OR during scheduled procedure with Jack is completely different than with Cameron. There's music playing and everyone is relaxed, people are chatting while we work. Jack lets me take the lead and this time he doesn't have to interject at all. He just murmurs word of encouragement, letting me know I'm doing a good job. It's more intense with Cameron and I loved that about being in the OR with him, but honestly this feels comfortable too.

When we're done we have to head to the next case immediately. This procedure is one I've only done a few times and he walks me through it expertly. He's actually an amazing surgeon and teacher, I don't know why I never wanted to work with him before.

Well if I'm being honest I know why and it's because I wanted to spend as much time with Cameron as I could. That's changed now, change is good. This procedure doesn't take long and we finish quickly. I take off all my OR garb and follow Jack out to talk to the families. He tells them how the procedure went and he's so charismatic with them. He makes the females swoon with his smile.

Now that the surgeries are done we have some down time.

"Come have lunch with me," he says and I can't refuse, especially if I want to become his favorite resident to have in the OR. I have to butter him up.

"Sure," I reply and as we're walking to the cafeteria we bump into Cameron. They talk lowly and I stand there awkwardly.

When I glance at Cameron he gives me a look that I can't decipher. I force myself not to care about it.

When they're done conversing Jack and I continue on to the cafeteria. We get our food and sit down and eat together. This is something completely new to me. I never had lunch with Cameron, the interactions we had were having sex and doing surgery. It's nice to relax with an attending in a casual setting and have a normal conversation.

"Where did you train?" I ask him as I eat my sandwich.

"This dumpy community hospital in Ohama, Nebraska. Honestly, I really lucked out with this position. It was literally my dream job and I applied on a whim not thinking I would actually be picked for an interview. They liked the articles I submitted along with my application and references. I think they wanted doctors who really kept up with the latest research." He explains and I nod in agreement.

"Your OR is honestly the most relaxed OR. Everyone is happy, they're not afraid to get yelled at..." I trail off not wanting to say too much more but I think he probably already knows I'm comparing him to Cameron.

"That's just the kind of person I am, you know?" He replies and I nod in understanding. He's genuinely a nice person, he doesn't have a God complex. I know I'll enjoy training with him. It won't be like Cameron, I doubt anyone could ever compare with Cameron, but it's a different kind of good.

We finish eating and then walk back to his office, he doesn't have anymore scheduled cases and he's not the attending on call so he's heading home.

I bite my lip as I watch him pack the things he's taking home. I've never really looked at him but he's good looking. His dark brown eyes, his tan skin and soft hair are quite attractive. I shake my head, trying to get those thoughts out of my mind. There's no way he's interested in me like that and even if he was, I can't get into another 'relationship' with an attending. It just wouldn't be right.

"You're assisting me tomorrow, yeah?" He asks and I laugh at the question because there's only one answer.

"Of course, if you'll have me." I tell him and he smiles at me.

"There's no one else I prefer," he says quietly and we stare at each other for a bit. I drop my eyes to the floor and when I look back up he's ready to go. We head out of his office and it's just my luck that Cameron is walking down the hallway towards us. I know he's on call tonight and so am I. For the first time I pray that there aren't any traumas. I don't want any interaction with him.