UNIQUE - [ steddie trans AU ]

01. imperfections

(tw - slurs, self harm and body dysmorphia)

there he was or that's what eddie thought. but all he could see was sarah munson in the mirror, someone he didn't want to see.

his eyes scanned his body, looking at all his imperfections. he hated his body.

he hated his small boobs, his curves, his butt and the cuts. the cuts that where fresh from last night, the cuts he gave himself.

eddie felt like cutting himself again. he grabbed the small pocket knife from under the sink and began cutting, slicing four more cuts into his skin, and deeper than what he did last night.

eddie jolted at a hard knock on the bathroom door, he put the knife back, and turned on the tap.

'eddie i'll be outside in the car.' wayne walked out the trailer to the van.

eddie sighed in relief that wayne didn't open the door. it was a sight to see, eddie turned off the tap and exited the bathroom.

once in his room he slid on boxers. he walked over to his bed and put on his black binder, it was tight, but breathable and soft.

his uncle honked the horn, notifying eddie that he was gonna be late. so eddie quickly threw on a long sleeve metallica sweater, black ripped jeans, and his white sneakers to match.

he rushed out the room after putting on his rings and handkerchief, eddie grabbed his bag and open the trailer door, the sun hit his face and the crisp spring air filled his lungs.

eddie walked over to the van, getting in and buckling himself down.

'hey eddie, it's going to be ok' wayne rubbed eddie's shoulder softly.

'd-do you s-see me as sarah, uncle wayne?' eddie's eyes prickled with tears, he sounded like he could break any second.

'eddie no i don't, you're a man, a strong handsome young man.' wayne's gripped loosen on eddie's shoulder.

eddie's tears rushed out and he hugged his uncle, crying into his shoulder. wayne rubbed eddie's back, he hated that people could be so cruel to his nephew.

they pulled apart and wayne started the car, pulling out the trailer park and driving on the bumpy road.

after a few minutes of driving and making it to the main road, eddie's stomach dropped as he saw it, hawkins high school.

in big bold letters, he would never forget this place. all the bullying he has to go through, all the hate he has to endure.

luckily he won't be here much longer.

it's his year.

'86'

eddie got out the car, he grabbed his bag and told his uncle bye. eddie hoped that today people would treat him like he was invisible.

walking into the school the vibe changed, from a loving environment into slur central. eddie whinced at the words thrown at him from the teens in the hallway.

tr*nny

faggot

tr*ns freak

all of it, he took it in. he hated this place, but eddie needed to finish school. he already failed last year, he wasn't gonna make the same mistake twice.

eddie walked with his head low until he reached his locker.

his best friend garreth saw him and approached.

'eddie, dude you alright?' garreth smiled at his best friend.

'no, nothing is alright, i hate this place.' eddie his is face in his locker.

'dude maybe after lunch we could hang out, practice for our gig next week, smoke?' garreth still smiling, trying to cheer eddie up.

'yeah, that sounds like fun i guess, i need fun in my life right now.' eddie chuckled.

'well I gotta get to class, see you man.' garreth walked off, out of sight.

eddie felt a lot better knowing that he had friends that where understanding. he grabbed the rest of his stuff and walked into class.

he got to his seat, with people of course starring at him and making jokes about him being trans.

he brushed it off, ignoring the hateful words. today he tried to be strong, hopefully that would last.