If she actually new

I'm sitting in math class thinking about Ryan. His beautiful blond hair, his big blue eyes. He's so CUTE! but the only thing standing in my way is his girlfriend! Lily. One of my best friends. She says "I'm so in love with him" and he says it back. But it isn't true! I hate her for dating him, but it isn't her fault. She doesn't know how I feel about him, and neither does he. It's the fact that she said she hated him earlier on in the year, and now you're in love with him? Every time she says they fight I hope she finishes with, "and we broke up." It never happens though. I try and try to be supportive, but on the inside, I always hope it doesn't work out. "Kaelin" "yeah, what?" "What's your answer?" The teacher asks me. "Oh um, what question are we on?" I ask embarrassedly "exactly, you need to pay attention" "ok, sorry it won't happen again" I reply "don't make promises you can't keep" she says. I look at my friend Ebony, and we start laughing. The teacher shoots a look at me, I freeze instantly. She looks away. I giggle a little then go back to my thoughts. Then the bell interrupts them! I go to block 2 social with mr. Pegnottas. It feels like it's already the end of the day but of course it isn't. I have to see Ryan walking through the halls every block, and that makes me want him more! The day went by slowly and painfully.

"Ok today is Friday, I hope it's a good one." I say with excitement " Yeah me too, Kaelin. But it'll probably be like all the other Fridays boring and slow!" Ebony replies tiredly. Me and Ebony are sitting in our desks, as is the rest of the class. Waiting for the bell to ring and the day to actually start. "RING" "RING" finally! I go to social then French. Next block is Science. I go get my books, the bell rings "Crap, I'm gonna be late!" I start running to the class, when I turn the corner, I find myself flat on the floor and so is Ryan. "Oh I'm so sorry! Are you ok" I say nervously "yeah I'm all good, are you ok?" He said gigglingly "yep" I reply he stands up and gives me his hand. I reach for it and he pulls me straight up. "Have fun in.." He looks at my books "Science" he finishes. "Thanks, um.. Bye" I say. I brush past his shoulder when he grabs my hand and pulls me toward him. He clenches my face with his left hand, and softly touches my lips, he presses harder with his right hand on my waist pulling me closer. My hands on his chest grabbing his green Hurley shirt, in my palms. He pulls his face back and says "I'm sorry I just really wanted to do that" "um.." Shocked that's all I can say. I walk away, I know he's staring at me and I want to turn around and jump into his arms but I know that I shouldn't, that kiss shouldn't have happened! What will Lily think? What should I tell her? She I even tell her? I walk into science class "sorry I'm late, my locker wouldn't open." "It's ok just don't let it happen again" mrs. Loraine says to me I take a seat next to Ebony. Me looking like and idiot smiling into space. So happy that happened but kind of regretting kissing him back. I'm so confused but all I know is that he does like me! I ask to go to the bathroom. I'm waking through the hallway. I want Ryan to come out of his class, I want him to kiss him again! The day ends. Ryan texts me "Kaelin I'm sorry for kissing you" "it's ok but um do you like me?" "Truthfully. Yes I can't get over you no matter how many people I date" "so are you gonna break up with lily then?" "Yes! Then you can be mine!! <3" "Ok! <3 bye ill see you tomorrow" "bye beautiful <3". This is the best moment of my life, me and Ryan are finally gonna date! He's gonna be mine and I don't have to get jealous or anything cuz Lily is finally out of my way. The weekend goes by fast, and I'm actually pretty happy about that. I can't wait to see Ryan. I wake up yes today is Monday! I get to see Ryan! I bus to school like usual. I walk through the doors and feel arms rapped around me. It's Ryan. Obviously. Me hugging him back. I find Lily eying me. Crap. Shit. What have I done? I break the hug. "I have to go get my books." "K" he replies. I walk to my locker. I can't lose my best friend to a guy. Can I. I really don't no what to do here.