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by MielValentine

by MielValentine

This story will mention s*icide real quick‚ just so that you know

Okay so basically‚ 2 adults decided to fuck in July 2006‚ which made one of them give birth to me in April 2007‚ which for personal reasons‚ I'll be calling myself "C".

At the age of 4‚ I already knew 2 languages‚ which were Portuguese & German (bilingual queen) but since I live in Luxembourg‚ I had to speak Luxemburgish in school but since I had no fucking idea what that was‚ I just basically spoke a mix of Portuguese & German‚ which was hell <3

Fast forward to when I was in 1st grade & switched schools‚ I was finally capable to speak Lux to communicate with other kids 😚👍 but unfortunately‚ I got bullied for a month due to a little son of a bitch☹️

When I was in 2nd grade‚ I had the biggest crush on this one guy ‚ I don't know if he knew about it but it was 3 years long. 💀 Anyway‚ during that time‚ I was also a homophobic little cunt that didn't like gay & lesbians ☹️ I was okay with trans people because I didn't know they were also part of the LGBTQ+ 😭👍 Anyway‚ I remember seeing a movie ( Jennifer's body) & there was like a kiss scene with 2 girls & I felt something inside of me that I was not supposed to feel. 😕

When I was 9‚ I smashed my cousin's head on the wall because he called me names & he had to go to the hospital & I didn't get any consecuences LMFAO #girlboss
Also‚ I once at that time had an argument with my parents ‚ so‚ I drank a tiny bit of bleach so I could ✨go to heaven✨ to be dramatic.....

I didn't die‚ I just ended up pissing the bed & blaming my cat for it.😚

When I was in 5th grade„ I realized I was bisexual because I started crushing on a friend but I had internalized homophobia so- ☹️ I forced myself to stop liking her & it worked but I started crushing on a guy from my class‚ which was a son of a bitch😞 Anyway‚ we "dated" for like 3 months but he ended it because he didn't actually like me ☹️👍 I had a complete breakdown for an hour but then I was all good lol

When I was 11-12‚ I got sexualized 😞 but I finally came out to some of my friends & they were pretty supportive :)))) & & I started meeting a lot of friends online. I met this one person online (we'll call him L) & we became very close‚ I ended up crushing on him very hard☹️😭 I also met my online brother😚💞💞
Anyway‚ at some point‚ L & I started dating for almost 11 months 🥲🙏

At the age of 13‚ L & I broke it off though for specific reasons but we still stayed as friends🥲✨✨ but my dumbass didn't move on---- anyway‚ not much to say here except that then I came out as pansexual

14-15 : I started losing a lot of online friends due to their activity‚ but at least my online brother was there for me<3☹️
I feel like I've also gotten mature so--- but my old school friends fucked me over except one but oh well‚ at least I'm changing schools😚👍

This is the end‚ I have no idea what to do bc I wrote this while I'm on the plane lol
bye & take care you fuckers