Life's Better When You Gotta Bassist In It // L.A. Guns •Kelly Nickels•

Sad Over the Fact I Lost What We Had

The next morning I woke up and found myself in Phil's arms. I smiled and yawned. "Wake up." I told him. "Well good morning Erin. He said. He got up and kissed me. "I hate to be that person but I have to hang out with the guys, which means I gotta go get the rest of the guys then come back here.

I nodded. "Before you go, I think you might want this back, it served it's purpose for me."
I told him, handing him his jacket. He smiled. "Thank you Erin." And with that he left out the window.

I walked into the kitchen and saw Kelly. "Hey Kelly." I said. "Hey, so the guys and I are gunna have a writing session today if that's okay." He said. I nodded, that's fine. I ate and soon enough there was a knock on the door. I got up to answer it and I saw the guys.

Especially Phil. I looked at him and smirked and he smirked back, throwing me a wink. They all filed in and sat in the living room. Kelly was staring at Phil, and I honestly didn't know why. He was wearing what he usually wore. Skinny black jeans a cut off shirt, his cowboy boots, and his jack-his jacket.

Oh Jesus.

(Kelly's POV)
The guys were coming over to the apartment to write songs anytime and Erin just got up. She had an even bigger smile this morning than she did last night. She was killing me. I think I like Erin.

Fuck.

Eventually there was a knock at the door and Erin answered. I watched as she looked at Phil then smirked, he doing the same and winking at her. I really fucking hope he wasn't the guy she was seeing.

As they entered I stared at Phil. If he was with Erin, I'd kill him. My eyes then fell on his jacket, the same one Erin was wearing last night. Jesus fucking Christ. Now I know why it looked so familiar. It was Phil's.

(End of Kelly's POV)

I think Kelly just connected dots and I hated it. I didn't even know why I was keeping it a secret from him in the first place. "Phil, man, what is up with you lately? You haven't been out with any of the girls who come to our shows." Tracii asked him.

Phil glanced at me briefly and smiled. "I've met someone." They all looked at him shocked, all except for Kelly. "Phil Lewis settling down?" Mick said like he was mocking a fake future headline.

"No, she knows what I want and I know what she wants. That's the deal." He said. "That's simple." I stated. Phil smiled, "Very." Before the conversation could carry on anymore, Kelly abruptly got up and walked to his room pissed off.

I sighed and got up, walking to his room. "What the hell is your problem?" I asked him. He turned to look at me, I looked in his eyes and he looked hurt. He didn't have reason to. "Are you seeing Phil?" Kelly asked out of no where.

I didn't know how to respond so I didn't say anything. He took my silence as a yes. "Of course you are. I hope you know he's using you." Kelly said aggravated. I laughed. "You don't think I know that? He's using me and I'm using him. I'm not gunna be sad when this shit goes up in flames, we just, y'know help each other out. And it's not like you have a say in who I date so chill." I told him.

He scoffed and walked back to the living room, leaving me alone in his room. I sighed and followed after him shortly after. I had to work so I left after I said goodbye to the guys.

(Kelly's pov)

I can't believe they were using each other. I think I like Erin. But of course I'll never tell her that. She's with Phil. I then decided to write a song about how I was feeling. The guys co-writing it with me.

After the song was finished, Phil left, probably to go see Erin. I should get shitfaced.

(End of Kelly's pov)

I was working when the bell to the door of the whiskey dinged and in walked Phil with a blonde girl. He kissed her and sat down at a table. Phil said he wouldn't leave things messy and he wouldn't cheat on me if he lost interest, he said he would have told me flat out before hand.

But I guess he lied.

I walked over to him. "Hey Erin, sorry." He said. I shook my head. "We both know it would have ended eventually." I said. He smiled and got up, walking over to me. He took my face in his hands and kissed me. This kiss was different than the other ones we had. It was kiss of goodbye.

I smiled at him. "Have fun with her, okay?" He nodded. "I have a feeling we're gunna be best friends." I laughed. He agreed and walked away. I knew I wouldn't get sad, but I was still sad about the fact I was alone again, and it wasn't the fact that I lost Phil, it was the fact that I lost what we had.

I went back to work and tried my best to focus. After my shift, I grabbed my tips and walked to my car. When I arrived at the apartment, I opened the door, closing it behind me, not bothering to lock it.

I turned around and saw Kelly sitting on the couch. "Hey Kelly." I said. He turned to look at me. "Heyyyy Erinnn." He said drunkenly. I sighed. I went to my room and changed into sweatpants and a baggy shirt.

I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a pint of ice cream out of the freezer and two spoons. "Scoot over." I told Kelly. He did and I sat on the couch next to him, handing him a spoon.

"You okay?" He asked. I shook my head. "Just a shitty day." I replied.

He nodded and left it at that. We spent our night eating ice cream and watching tv.