Me Before You

Chapter 1

After I signed the divorce paper, I went out and leave the house but I stopped as I decided to look at the house for the last time that our parents built for us and bid farewell to the place where we had a lot of memories, being together for only 2 years, shared thoughts and talking at the veranda.

I want to forget the only bad things that happened to us and keep all the good and fun memories together with Matthew the love of my life even in the short period of time being with him I felt the longings of how to be loved but I think there's always an end to this.

Not once that I caught Matthew cheating on me but many times since we lived together but I just shrugged it off since I love him, he didn't hurt me?, well now I guess he really did hurt me not physically but emotionally. He showed me love but I know and I think that it was all just for the show but there's this feeling that the love through his action was true but I think because of anger of what I saw it vanished like it never happened and all the good thing that he did to me just popped like a bubble.

We we're best friends together with Matthew and Ashley since then, we used to be the best tandem EVER or TRIO if that's what you call, but everything has changed when they're started dating without my knowing. We avoided each other for like 8 months and there when I met Jake my other best friend and his friend and another friend that I get along for the past 8 months. But after that 8 months it was the start of the revelation that shocked everyone including Me, Matthew and Ashley.

Both our parents agreed and planned the arrange marriage between Me and Matthew. Just for the sake of the company. He was angry while looking at me like he's about to kill me, Ashley stood up and rush out to leave the mansion and Matthew is about to leave and follow ashley but he was stopped when his dad called him. He can't do anything. I can see. He was very mad at me.

We married at the private church in France. I was happy and guilty at the same time. I look at the face of Matthew but only cold emotions can written on his face, he's not happy I can tell that, I know and it's my fault?. After that our parents brought us to the house that we should live from now on. And that when my life started to crumble and a lot of realization that i should do at first. He start banging girl and another girls and everyday and every night with loud moans as if I'm not around. Yes I was hurt but I can't do anything about it. And yes in OUR house.

I guess we're just best friend that we still really don't know the real and true colors of each other. I can't believe he can do that, having sex with different women while me in the other room crying. And I think because of me he changed, but it's not my fault at all, it's his life not mine. Every time he sees me, it was like he's looking at the garbage who roaming around the house. And the routine goes on.

There was one time I was asleep and I feel like someone's kissing at the back of my neck, I groaned at the tingling sensation. I moan as if someone's having sex with me while I'm having my dreams but I was wrong it was Matthew and he's drunk? I tried to push him but he's fucking strong and with this petite body of mine for sure I'm nothing against him.

I can't also control this feeling as well, it's getting hot and after that I found myself getting bang by Matthew with his long and big erect d*ck inside my poor hole. He's very rough, I cried because it hurts, I tried to stop him, but he shrugged my hands and put it on the back. He just moaned and moaned until he feed me with his seeds and exploded a lot of his semen inside me then he pulled it out and the word that he said before he pass out, hurt me the most the I feel like I was stabbed many times. "I love you Ashley" I cried while cleaning my body facing the dripping water in the shower. Why is this happening to me?

After days, weeks, months I wondered why he's suddenly become so sweet and caring unlike before he's always shouting at me and he's not distant to me at all. I was so happy, we can talk what we want, shared our thought that made us laugh and the moment, he was sorry for what he did. And imagine he always peck a kiss on my lips before he go to work, I was really happy at that finally my prayers got answered but I was wrong. I was planning to surprise the most shocking announcement to Matthew, everything is ready and perfect so my plan is to surprise him at the company since he left at work early. Me myself can't believe it either that I can bare a child, that I am a carrier.

But before that he texted me that he's at his condo. I was confused he left early and I thought he went to the company so why is he doing at the condo? I don't want to overthink but I was nervous as fudge that I didn't know. So changed of plan and to surprise him at his condo. Maybe he has a surprise also that blushed me out of nowhere.

But what I saw is surprise me the most, it turned out that I was the one whose surprised. I can't believe they can do this to me, I thought Matthew changed. But he didn't, he was there lying on the bed with my ex best friend Ashley and I think they just finish having sex? With that mess that they've made. Wow, I drop the small box that supposed to be my surprise to him, that made a loud noise that woke them up in an instant. He even call me hon which he never did before. I run and never got to hear his explanation because I'm not in myself anymore and I think that was my mistake that I didn't trust him enough? But I was covered by my anger and I was hurt.

I was back to myself when I heard Jake called my name "Hey, Allen Let's go, we're running out of time before our flight lets go" ugh. Jake I'm having my moment here. So I look back again and bid my farewell.

gosh i think i'm addicted to you, but it's unhealthy,
did i ask for too much?
I really love you, but it's hurting me

three words.
i love you

two words.
i'm sorry.

one word.
goodbye.

❤

SOOOOHEE