Five stages of grief (Eremin)

Chapter 2 Apologies

Y'all I have no motivation today but here we are. I know I have to get this story up and running but my lazy self doesn't want to but yeah then I kept telling at my self like, "DO IT YOU BUM" and yeah hello

ANYWAYS ENJOY 

Mikasa POV 

I stared at the closed front door. Tears were slowly streaming down my cheek. I wiped them away but they just came back. I shouldn't have yelled at him like that. God I'm such a jerk.

He deserves an apology, he's not doing any better than the rest of us.

I grabbed the door knob and turned it. The door opened (Armin didn't take the time to lock it) and I walked in. 

I breathed in the calming scent of his house. He always kept it clean and nice. I stepped out of my trance and quickly but carefully walked to his bedroom. I knocked gently three times.

No answer.

I knocked again, "Armin are you alright?"

 I started to get worried so I grabbed the handle and said, "I'm coming in." I attempted to turn the knob but it wouldn't move.

I tried again but again it wouldn't budge. "Dammit" I mumbled. 

I began to fidget with the lock attempting to break it off somehow but it wouldn't work.

I got frustrated and breathed in, "sorry about this Armin!" And with that I brought my leg back and kicked the door as hard as I could and it instantly slammed open and banged against the wall. 

 I ran in and looked around but he wasn't in there. 

 "What the hell-"

I looked over to the window which was unlocked. I opened it and looked out and I barely could see shoeprints leading into the forest. They were not that visible but I could see them.

I quickly crawled out of the window and closed in before I ran into the forest towards where I hoped Armin was.

(Timeskip brought to you by Frog hat Levi)

I'm lost

Yep I'm fucking lost.

I'm currently staring at a bunch of trees and no more shoeprints were to be found. I ran to far. I wasn't paying to and I took a wrong turn and now I have no idea where I am. 

I let out a purposely loud sigh that sounded more like I was yelling. 

I ran over to a tree and punched the trunk, scraping my knuckles but breaking off some wood. I ignored the pain in my hand and slid down the tree onto the ground. 

The sun was beginning to set and I knew I wouldn't fair well out in the forest by myself at night. I try to keep my fighting skills up even after they weren't needed as much as they used to. I've been slacking lately. 

I got up and decided to try and find my way back. 

The further I walked the darker it got. I began running. I had no light so I was basically chasing the light. It turned out effective as I eventually stumbled out of the forest and into a field. A field of slightly long grass, flowers and my favorite. The tree. 

I sighed out of relief as I saw the shoeprints once again. They led to the tree. 

I walked over to it without hesitation and went to the side with Eren's resting place but as I was about to sit down I saw Armin there, sleeping. 

I sighed our of even greater relief. I looked at the sight and tears prickled my eyes at it. 

Armin was sleeping next to Eren's grave with his hand on top of it. It was a sad sight and I didn't want to take him away from it but it was dark out and he would be safer back at home. I picked him up with a little bit of struggle (I said I had been slacking) I groaned at the weight on my back but lifted him up and walked into the forest and to his house.  

When we arrived I decided to go through the front door rather than the window considering the fact that I didn't want to try and throw Armin through the window without waking him up, that was beyond my ability.

I quietly opened the door and walked into the now dark cabin. I made sure to close the door behind me as I continued on to the bedroom. I went over to his bed and laid him down. He seemed so peaceful when he was by Eren but the moment I took him away he started shaking and moving slightly while I was carrying him. 

I looked back at the door and saw that it was still open and the knob was stuck in the wall. As quietly as possible, I pulled the door out of the wall and looked back at Armin to make sure he wasn't awake. 

But when I looked back at him he was awake. 

"Oh sorry, I was just-" 

"No don't worry about it."

He cut me off. I sighed and went to leave but when I was about to close the door behind me, Armin spoke again, 

"I'm sorry for slamming the door in your face and not listening to you."

I laughed a little and turned back around just to look at him, " I'm sorry for snapping at you. You aren't feeling any better than me or everyone else. It wasn't right and I'm sorry. " 

He smiled while sitting on his bed, looking up at me. 

I smiled back before I slowly left, closing the door behind me and left the house, also closing the door behind me. 

I let out a long breath I hadn't realized I had been holding.

I smiled to myself as I left back to my house.

Third person POV

Armin watched as Mikasa left his room, closing the door behind her and right after he heard the front door open and close. 

He breathed in as he went over to his closet and put on some comfier pants. His hand went over to a drawer handle as he opened it and took out a single shirt. He pulled it over his head and grabbed the extra part of it that didn't for that well and lifted it to his face. He breathed in and felt more tears well up again.

It still smelt like him

Armin smiled to himself as he hugged part of the shirt to his face as he lied down on his bed.  He was tired and all he wanted to do was sleep now.

he smiled one last time before falling into a deep sleep, while taking in the scent of Eren's shirt. 

I suck at writing but here I am 😭😭

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