Knowing Emily Walker✓

29. It's not your fault

Edited.

Emily's POV

Everything happened so quickly that I wasn't able to understand what was going on.

One minute Tyler was hugging me and the next minute he was on the floor as blood gushed out from his stomach where he had been shot. His mum immediately started crying and shouted at the police to do something. Soon enough the paramedics ran over to him and placed him on a stretcher as they started treating him while racing to the ambulance.

I followed them until they were outside. I wanted to enter the ambulance with them but Tyler's mum stopped me. She took both of my hands in hers and stared at me. I expected her to yell at me for putting her son in such a position.

"I'm s-so sorry about what h-happened in there but I really need you right now" she said gently.

And that's why presently I find myself in Tyler's house at the door at 3am in the morning with my mind trying to process everything that just happened in the span of 24 hours.

I quickly open the door with the key Rose gave me to see the twins wide awake sitting in the living room with the house phone in their tiny hands.

They immediately run to me wrapping thier hands around me. I bend down to their height and hug them tightly.

"What's wrong? Where's Tyler?" Nickie asks as she looks at me

"I-I.... He's in the hospital" I say softly. They both look at me with confusion

"Why?" Nick asks

"Something real bad happened to him and we need to go see him okay?" I say softly and they both nod

I quickly get them ready and answer some of their questions but I don't tell them that he was shot. I just couldn't. I'm right here thinking everything is fine. But what if he's dead? I'll be the one to blame. Because I brought him there. I always pull him into all my problems.

Soon enough I drive them to the hospital Rose told me they were in. We quickly make our way to the receptionist

"I'm looking for Tyler Miller" I say

"He's still in the operation room but you can wait in the waiting room on the 4th floor with Miss Miller" the receptionist informs

I say thank you and quickly move to the elevator.

"Mum!!" The twins yell as they run to their mother and hug her tightly

I smile weakly at them then take a sit next to Rose

"Is he okay?" I ask her as my eyes begin to swell up with tears

"I don't know. The doctor hasn't said anything about him. Their still in there" she replies

And that's when it comes crashing down on me that Tyler, the guy that I love so fucking much, might not make it. He might be dead today and it's all my fault. I always cause him so much harm but he always still cared for me.

And the guilt of yelling at him in school came to realization. Upon the fact I yelled at him telling him I never want to see him again, yet he still came.

I start crying all over again. His mum might even blame me for all the shit I've done

"Hey, hey it's okay alright" Rose says and pulls me close to her

"This is all my fault" I whimpers and she shushes me

"If we want to blame someone it's that man, Raymond okay? It's not your fault" she says

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Rose and the twins are asleep. We've been her for about 5 yours now and still no news on Tyler.